Are You There, Somewhere? (girlxgirl) [ON HIATUS]

Chapter 13: Is It My Fault

Hey peeps! I'm losing viewers because of the late update on the last chapter, so I just wanna say I'm so sorry! *cries* This chapter was pretty hard to write because I don't know what's gonna happen to these two pumpkin heads. And I'm just so sad for my little Annabelle~ *cries while biting my tab*

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(LANA'S POV)

"You don't have to be so harsh to her, yknow."

I know. But I had to.

"She's going through a lot too. With her parents being such dick heads and everything."

Mm.

"And college, she even have to quit college and go back to England. Possibly, most probably, the only place she doesn't want to be." Stacey turned to me as soon as she finished doing the dishes. I didn't turn to look at her. I just couldn't help myself but stare into my bowl of cereal like it was the most interesting ever.

"Are you even fucking listening to me??" She threw a piece of cloth that she used to wipe her hands to my head.

"What do you want me to say?? That it's my fault that all of this happened? You think I don't know that already?"

Stacey sighed. "No. It's not your fault, of course. Its just that, you don't have to shut her out like that. I mean, the girl ran away from her lunatic parents for you, man. And then you basically told her to just fuck off. That's cold. That's really fucking cold of you."

It was my turn to sigh. "Well what's the better option? Have a clean break up? Told her that I did this because I love her?"

Stacey perked up with wide eyes and brows up, her expression thoughtless. "Well I think that'd be better than-"

"No, Stace. It won't.  Knowing how Annabelle is, that's not gonna fucking work. That would just make her hold on to me stronger."

"And you don't want that?"

I looked up and caught Stacey's gaze. She looked terribly concerned. Not about me, I bet. But about Annabelle. She had been surprisingly taken by the girl. With Annabelle reminding her as her sister and all. But do I want Annabelle to do that? To hold on and wait for me? "Of course I do, Stace." I said as tears threatened to fall from my eyes. "But I couldn't do that to her. I couldn't do that to my Belle."

"Why not? You two really love each other. It shouldn't have ended this way.." Stacey broke down to tears. I was a bit shocked and felt a heavy guilt by the realization that this not only effected me and Annabelle, but in a way, it had effected Stacey too.

"Because it's just is, okay? I don't wanna talk about this anymore. I made my decision and I don't regret it." I shoved away my cereal bowl and head towards the door. Not willing to see Stacey in that state anymore, it broke my heart that has already broken. I was walking towards my bed, planning to hide in the blanket until next two months before I found myself walking to the front door, down the stairs and out of the apartment for a walk.

The breeze was refreshing, as refreshing as it could get here in New York. I didn't have a plan on where I was going.  I let my feet drag me wherever they want. I just need to stop thinking about Annabelle.

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