Broken Hearts & Concrete Walls

Debbie

Debbie was my first girlfriend & the first girl to ever do me wrong. We dated in middle school. The 7th or 8th grade I believe but back in middle school I was really a nobody. I didn't care about what I would wear to school. I really had no type of drip at all. I had no clue about what was lit & what wasn't. People use to make fun of me. Laughed at me because I was ashy. Anything you can think of , I went through it. There was this one girl named Deborah. Everybody calls her Debbie. I had a crush on her but back then I was too pussy to say anything to her. My best friend T use to always tell me stop being a bitch & run down but in my head I knew she'll never date a nigga like me. One day me & T at lunch with a few other kids I was cool with. It was a Monday because we were talking about wrestling at the table. As we conversing I feel a tap on my shoulder , turn around & it was Debbie. My heart instantly dropped & I became nervous off the rip. I tried my best to keep my composure. She told me that she thinks I'm cute & wanted to know if she can call me sometime. I said stuttering over my word like "yea sure". I gave her my phone. (It was a Motorola razr. Motorolas were a big thing back then.) she said I had a nice phone while she was putting her number in it. She texted her phone off of my phone & then said "I'll call you later" as she walked off. I sat down with my niggas & T was like "I told ya scary ass to run down on her. Acting all scared & shit didn't even know she liked ya dumbass back." I laughed sat back down & finished my lunch just thinking to myself this can't be real. All this time & she liked me. I never seen myself having a girlfriend because of the way I looked in other peoples eyes. I wasn't popular & that's all she hung around with. It was a bunch of questions I needed answers to but I put it to the side & basked in the moment. School day is over with so I go home , do my homework , & throw on GTA IV for a little bit. As I'm playing my phone rings. I got so exited that I dropped the controller by accident & it made me crash flying out the windshield in the game. I pick up the phone & it was T fat ass. "Yoo wats good bitch ? Slide to my house if u tryna get geeked I'm bouta roll up rite now." "Aight bet" I said. "I'm otw now cartman gimme like 5mins & that thing in ya possession is a Dutch. Not a slim Jim." "Stfu bitch hurry tf up" he said as he hung up. I turned the game off & got dressed then I walked to his house which was literally right around the corner. Gets to his house & bro outside rolling up talking bout some "took ya black ass long enough." "Stfu fat boy you still rolling up doing all that talking" I said back. We smoke go inside & hop on 2k for a Hr or two. Go back outside & smoke one more before I dub out. As we smoking bro asked if Debbie hmu yet. I told em "nah bro she ain't bang my line yet. I thought it was her when ya fat ass called." He laughed at me saying "that's wild though bro who would've thought." I told em that's the same shit I was thinking. So the blunt finish, I dap bro up & tell em I'll see his fat ass in the morning for that blunt walk to school. I get home take another shower then lay up watching menace 2 society. My phone ring when I pick up it's her. "Heyy mikee it's me debbie." No other female had my number besides family so I knew it was her. I had to play it off kool like "oh hey wassup." She was telling me bout how she was doing a bunch of errands for her mother the past 2hrs that why she never called earlier. I told her it was kool so after that I asked her what made her ask for my number. She told me it was something about me. I was different & that's what was attractive about me. So the conversation goes on for another 10mins or so then she asks if I would like to come through to her spot 2morrow. I said "yea sure" nervously because it was not only my first time going to a girls house but wtf is her parents going to think. So i asked her "ya moms don't care?" She said "nah she kool matter fact she wanna talk to you." Before I could even say ok I was on the phone with her mother. It went better then I thought it would because she pretty much was just saying how Debbie talks about me a lot & how she can't wait to meet me. Like I said in the beginning , I'mma nobody compared to her so to hear her mother say those things really brought joy to me. Next day comes , went to school , blah blah blah , schools over with I'm home now. I shower then get dressed & walked to her house. Comes to find out she also stays around the corner but the opposite direction from T. I get to her steps & ring her door bell. She came downstairs in a sports bra & a pair of basketball shorts. She gave me a hug & walked me upstairs. When I got up there her mother was in the kitchen cooking. Debbie introduced us & she told me how good I looked. I thanked her & told her same in return then Debbie took me to her room. I sat down on the bed as she stared goin through her dressed & shit. She asked if I smoked & i told her yea. She told me it was a surprise to her because I didn't look like the type. She turned around & had half a blunt in her hand. She told light it up so that's what I did. As we were smoking I told her "I kno you see how all the popular kids treat me in school & you hang out with them. How would you think they would feel about this whole "us" situation ?" She told me she don't care for that. She does what she wants. None of them controls her actions. Pretty much telling me nothing to worry about. We finished smoking & headed downstairs to eat. We got our food , we ate , then headed upstairs to smoke before I left. While we smoking she was telling me about her ex. Pretty much saying how he was a control freak & mean asf . So I asked her who her ex was & she said "Jamie." I replied "Jamie in the 9th grade?!" She said "yea. Why you know him?" I told her I didn't really kno him but me & his lil brother Mikey is kool. She was telling me how she had to move on from him & all this othe me shit. So the blunt finished she walk me to the door thanking me for coming over. She gave me a hug then went back inside. Next day come. We at class & for some reason the popular kids were being nice to me. I couldn't really understand why it was whatever. Lunch time come around & one of the popular kids named Brian came up to me & asked if I wanted to go the high school game with them later. I told em yea I'll be there so he dapped me up & kept it pushing. Schools over with I go home & called Debbie to tell her. When I told her she was acting strange about it. Pretty much telling me a bunch of excuses not to go. Now this was a once in a lifetime thing for me at the time. The popular kids invited me to go to the game with them. I wasn't missing that shit for nothing. I told her ok & hung up. So later on comes around & I head towards the high school. You had to walk past the middle school to get to the high school so as I'm cutting through I bump into Brian && all the other popular kids. They were talking about something but I was too far to intercept what they were saying. When I got close enough I yelled his name. He turned around surprised dapped me up & ask was I heading toward the game. I said "yea." He told catch a ride with them so I did. We got there & people were shocked to see me outve all people to be getting out the same car as Brian & the popular kids. We get up in the bleachers & watch the first half of the game. The high was winning 21-0. Halftime came around & Brian told me to walk with him it was something he wanted to show me. So as we walking , the popular kids were giggling & shit. I didn't think too much of it. So we finally came to a stop & Brian said " you must really like Debbie huh?" I said "yea." Confused because I didn't think he knew about me & her. I was about to ask how he know me & her were talking but right before I can get it out , Debbie came outve nowhere but she wasn't but herself. She was under Jamies arm. I was so lost & confused. I asked her wtf is going on ?! She said "look dude me & Brian had a bet. The bet was whoever had the lowest test grade between me & him would have to do a dare that we can't say no to. I lost so he betted me to date whoever I thought was a loser in the class then break up with em at the football game in front of everybody." My heart instantly had a sharp pain in it. I teared up saying "but I met your mom. She told me you talked about me all the time." She told me she was in on it too. I really couldn't believe this was happening at the time. I replied "but you said I was different." She told me "cmon now mike do you REALLY think I would like some one like you. You're a loser & I couldn't be seen dating you.I needa real nigga" as she kissed Jamie. "Don't take it personal." As they all started laughing at me. I went home n cried myself to sleep. I really thought she had liked me. Comes to find out it was a fucking bet.  That was the first day where i stared building my wall. Telling myself I would never be so gullible again.