Broken Hearts & Concrete Walls

Jessica

Jessica was my third girlfriend. When me & her was a thing , I was already outve high school runnin the streets or whatever. I met her at the trap awhile back when bro threw a kickback for one of the other homies that jus came home from a 3yr bid. I was in the cut somewhere rolling up when all of a sudden back that ass up by juvenile started playing. I looked up & all the bitches started throwing ass. So I lit my blunt then and instantly started lookin for some ass to get behind. Before I can even do my search I was up against the wall witta phat ass on me. She was throwing it back & no questions asked i started catching that mufucka. Song goes off so she stops dancing & I light my blunt back up. She said "that shit look like it's bussin can I hit it?" I said "that's funny because you took the words right outve my mouth." As I laughed. She giggled tellin me to stfu as she hit the gas. She passed me the blunt back then I asked what her name was. She told me her name is Jessica. I was bout to tell her my name but she cut me off saying she already knew who I was. Saying she been wanting to meet me for the longest.

(By this time I was out out in the trenches with my niggas. We was really running the street terrorizing shit onna daily. Niggas knew in the hood we wasn't nothing to fuck with. We were notorious in the streets for the things we did so with that being said there was a lot of bitches that wanted to fuck just off my clout. I was really out running around fucking onna daily. That's another story but back to it)

I told her "Is that so?" As I smirked at her. "So what you been hearing beloved?" she said "you know the streets be talking & everywhere I go there's always somebody talking about you & ya niggas. Especially these dusty ass hoes you be fuckin." As she rolled her eyes. I laughed at her sayin "first of all I never put my dick in a dusty bitch EVER in my life so chill. My dick is a blessing so I can't be out here just fucking anybody. Plus half of dem bitches be lying anyway. They wanna fuck but I never give em the time of the day & they be mad about it. I'll be wrong if I go around saying how they sucked my dick though. Oh AIGHT" I said hittin the blunt. She started laughing saying "w.e Mike I ain't gunn lie they said you was funny. I wonder what else they said was true" as she looked me up & down. I caught on & told her she can find out. We exchanged numbers & hooked up later that night. I ain't gunna get into to detail but I knocked her boots. Ever since then we were fucking on the regular. It got to the point where we just started calling each other bae type shit. Few months go by me & her still at , feelings got deeper but nobody knew about us but us.  So one day my mother told me she's booking me a flight to come stay with her for a week or two. I stayed with my grandparents in Connecticut & she stayed in South Carolina with my siblings. I told her Ight bet so once that was confirmed I went & told Jessica about it. She was upset of course but she wasn't mad. She understood. My flight was the next day at 8pm. So I headed home early & got packed. While I'm in South Carolina I was keeping contact with Jessica for the first week. The second was kind of iffy because she stopped replying & picking up like she used too. I ain't think too much of but 2 weeks go by & im back in Connecticut. I got home unpacked my shit , showered then I hit the hood. Before I got there I called Jessica phone letting her know I was back & was coming through later. She ain't pick up so I sent her a txt instead. Finally reach the hood & all my niggas was out there I dapped em up & we started rolling up after that. As we smokin & chopping it up i here one of the homies say "Aay bro I gotta tell u bout this bitch I was fuckin on last week. This bitch is the TRUTH." He said as he blew the smoke out. One of the other homies screamed out "wats her name bro?" He replied "on sum real shit bro idk" as he laughed "I can tell you wat she look like though. She short , light skin , I think she Puerto Rican. Gotta tattoo on her thigh a rose I think or some shit idk." As he explaining her the only bitch that came to mind was Jessica. I didn't want it to be true but I wasn't bout to let this bitch play with my feelings like the last ones did so I said "Ayo she always got pigtails in her hair?" The homie shook his head "yup. How I know because I had em wrapped around my hands while I was bussin she from the back." Right there I wanted to knock the homie head off his shoulders but I couldn't because if it did come to that they were looking for explanation why I did it & I was tryna embarss myself lettin kno the hoe he fuckin is girl. Plus the only ones that about us was me & her. I took the smarter way out & played it off like "yea that's Jessica." The homie looked up at me like "yea that's her name. You must've hit before too huh?" I told em "nah I seen her around though." In my head I'm like yea because that's my girl. Or atleast I thought she was. The homie was like "hell yea bro I was droppin dick all in that bitch for like a week." I replied like "word?!" He said "on the dead homies. Matter of fact she let me record her too." When he said that all the homies started saying he was lying so he pulled the phone & showed us the video. I didn't want to believe it but I knew it was her because of the pigtails & the other rose tattoo she had on her shoulder. In my head I'm like wow that's fucking crazy. Can't believe this bitch. How tf could I be so stupid. I got my thoughts together then I dapped aaybody up & told em I got sum shit to handle. I started heading towards Jessica's house. I had to stop at papi spot otw there to get a cig to calm me down. I knocked on the door & she came & opened it. She jumped on me saying how much she missed me & how she was just about to call me. In my head I knew it was all bullshit but I played along saying I missed her too & it was ok. We go in her room , she gets comfortable but I chose to stand up. She said "wats wrong bae ? Sit down." I told her I was good then I asked "what you were doing my last week in South Carolina? U stopped picking up & replying to my text messages." She said " I'm sorry bae. My ma got sick & I had to go care for her. I was hardly around my phone." I looked at her & shook my head up & down. Sitting here thinking to myself I can't believe this bitch looked me in my eyes & lied to me. I kept it kool though & said "that's all you did that whole week?" I said with a fake chuckle. She told me yea then asked me where I was coming from. I told her I jus left the hood. How I was posted up with the homies or whatever. When I said that her eyes got wide hoping I didn't notice she put her head down his saying "oh" nervously. I asked if something was wrong pretty much giving her the chance to come clean she said no. Then she asked who was all out there. So i started saying names & said the homie Harlem name. She got wide eyed again & said "oh Harlem was out there?" Again nervously. I said "yea" catching on to the tension in the room. She said "oh wat were y'all taking bout?" I told her "nun really jus out there being niggas." Giving a fake laugh. It got awkward so before I gave her the chance to catch on that I knew , I told her I was going to the bathroom. When I got there , I hit Harlem up & told em send me that video. He replied saying " tf nigga why lol that's mad sus." I said "nah it ain't even like that I'm with some nigga that swear she ain't a thot & I'm just tryna prove em wrong." He said "aight" n sent the video. So I go back in the room & switch the vibes up. I looked at her & said "bae I ain't have that pussy in 2weeks so I been watchin a lot of porn." She laughed saying "porn?!! I'm sorry baby come get you some fat Ma missed you anwyay." In my head I'm cracking tf up but I said "aight bet but I wanna show you this video of this bitch getting fucked & I want you to throw that ass the same way." She looked at me like "oouuu you nasty daddy lemme see." She don't even know wat was about to happen. I played the video & gave it to her & waited. A minute went by in the video & she caught on. She looked up at me sayin "look bae-" I cut her off saying "don't even worry about it yo. You really had me going yo deadass. On god you a lame ass bitch. Don't event hmu again yo you dead ta me shorty." Then I started walking towards the door. She started crying then grabbed my arm. " I said bitch let go of me!" As I yanked my arm from her. That shit hurt me so bad that it put me in a state where I would NEVER trust a bitch again. Ever relationship lead to me getting cheat on or some shit. It made me cold hearted & into the person I used to be.