Lost

Joan's coffee

I woke up about 10:45 in the morning and for the first time in A long time i felt rested. I did not Cut that Night. I Think that is A large progress. I found some clothes and went downstairs. Mom was also awake, i could see and smell that she was making breakfast. Nice. "Morning honey!!!" Mom Said, and began to hug me. A very tight hug. I was A little bit annoying that she yelled that "early" in the morning. We'll, it was 11 AM, I think she had been awake for a while. *

The eggs was so good! I couldn't eat that much after dinner last night. I ate like 6 tacos or something. Hah. Typical me! I went upstairs again to take a bath. I turned the water on, and began to take my clothes of. In the mirror I could se a girl. With mascara under her eyes, very messy hair and very clear bones. I would really like to put some weight on. I don't want to be fat. I just want to be normal. The water was very hot, but that was just nice. My body began to soften up a little bit. "MOOOM CAN YOU TAKE MY PHONE AND GET ME SOME MUSIC PLEASE?!" I yelled, and laughed a little. I could hear her run up the stairs and in like 2 seconds she stood in the bathroom. "Thanks, the code is 0109 , and you just go in to that little button named music" I said and looked at her. She looked confused. "Yes, I have done that now! Haha! Im a genius! What now?" She said and kept looking at my phone. "Very good! Then you choose the playlist named ' bath stuff ' and click on the first song that comes" I said . "Fireproof" with One Direction started playing, and I noticed that my mom was gone. I don't know why, but Tyler popped up in my head. The doorbell rang throughout the house, and I could hear Tyler's voice in the background. FUCK!!! I let the water out, and took the clean towel on the wall, and put it on my hair then I took another towel and began to rub my arms, legs and stomach. I took the clean underwear, took it on and went into my room. I took a pair of slim fit jeans, A sweatshirt and A pair of socks, took it on and went downstairs. "Who was it?" I said , even though I knew it. "It was the sweet boy in the yellow house! I left the note he gave me on the table, I think it was for you!" She said and smiled. I ran into the kitchen and took the blue note. " thanks." I said and hurried up to my room again. I opened it... God I was nervous.

'Joan's coffee at 3 PM. 83546137 '

SH*T!!!! I looked at the clock, it was 1 PM. I had some time... I found a hairbrush, and ran it through my hair . What should I do with it? "Mom! Can you help me for a sec!?" I said/ yelled and she came up. "Can you curl my hair?" I said and looked into the mirror where I could se her standing behind me, holding my hair. She went into the bathroom on the other side of the hallway, and came back with a curling iron. She began to curl my hair in loose little curls, and when she was done she kissed my cheek, and went into the bathroom again. I think she had read the note. I took some parfume I don't usually use, and sprayed it on my neck, and my wrist. Before I knew it, my watch said 3 PM. I hurried down the stairs and took my cowboy jacket and took my keys in the drawer. "I'm going to take a walk with a friend mom! I'll be back before 5 PM!!!!" I yelled and closed the door behind me. I began to ride into the town. *

I parked on the other side of the street, and walked over to 'Joan's coffee' . Should I wait outside or inside? Should I say something first, or should he? Should I even be here??? Before I knew , Tyler was standing in front of me, in a leather jacket, a white t- shirt, black jeans and a pair of converse... Holy mother of all dirty fucks. "Hi!" He said and smiled. I looked like a idiot. "Hi." I said and tried to smile as much as I could. We got in, and found a table down at the end of the café. "If I should be earnest, I didn't think you would show up... Sorry" he said and looked me deep into the eyes... "Well... I .. Like.. I thought that I should because you are a nice boy..." No!! I was so terrible at this... " we'll thank you" he said and laughed and I couldn't help but laugh neither. "What do you want?" He asked and looked at the menu. "I'll take a vanilla latte , sugar free, and a little plate of blueberry pie" I said and looked at him again. "Okay," he said and smiled a bit cocky. "I'll get that for you" when he came back, i realized that I was very hungry. I drank a little bit of my coffee, and then I jumped on the pie. I was so good. "Ehm.. Lilly. You have some...eh.." He said and removed the little piece of pie on my lip.

That night I dreamt about Tyler .