Hi I was 12 when I wrote this read smthn else please

When you're low..

I should probably  give a disclaimer to not attempt to mimic any actions in my stories such as killing, suicide, drugs, self harm or any other dangerous acts. They are in there for entertainment purposes so don't mimic anything please. I don't wanna be held accountable for anything. Especially in this chapter going over these topics they aren't a solution I put it in for entertainment.

Violet POV

I looked back down at my phone and pretended nothing happened. Pretended I didn't see him. Pretended I didn't know him.

"Hey.." he said slowly.

"Who are you again?"

"You know who I am and don't pretend you never met me."

"Well I guess I could tell you my opinion on the situation." I paused, "I get you guys would rather have the pop star bitch, stupid pianist or dumb writer but in front of me? I get you would rather have a girlfriend who isn't a wanted criminal and isn't insane from time to time but you guys could've told me."

"Violet it's not-."

"Oh wait sorry, I get it now. You guys were afraid of me. You thought I would kill you or something dumb. Well I loved you guys and I wouldn't have.... I'm gonna leave now..." I said starting to tremble and forming tears in my eyes.

I walked away. I decided to take the bus and stop at the local drugs store for some pills and a pack of cigarettes. Honestly I don't smoke and I'm not a drug addict. I don't get addicted to this stuff and this is a one time thing I guess. I ended up giving most of the cigarettes away to people who were addicted and needed them. Same with the pills which I gave to drug dealers. I had 3 pills and one cigarette for myself. I didn't wanna risk getting addicted so I only kept a few for myself.

Later I heard a knock on my door. I open it to see the three assholes I didn't wanna see. They just let themselves in. I forgot I gave them my passcode. Ugh..

"Why do you have a thing of pills on your bed?" Leon asked.

"What do you think?" I say impatiently.

"Wait.." Rantaro went out to my balcony.

"What?"

"It smells like cigarettes."

"Yep."

"Why? Just why?" Byakuya asked.

"Huh?"

"You're doing drugs and smoking."

"To be fair it was only three pills and one cigarette. I gave the rest away."

"But why?"

"Heartbreak and stuff... nothing you don't know."

"Wait.."

"Get out."

"What?"

"I said get out." I said and slammed the door.

The next day I had to go back to school and when I did I was depressed as usual. It was break and I was at the rooftop near the air conditioning because Byakuya, Leon and Rantaro were trying to find me but I didn't wanna talk to them. I was just eating my Cheeseburger I got and thinking 'why..? Why did I not just jump...? I had tons of chances...'

"Violet?"

"Huh?"

I looked to see a girl with pigtails wearing a red and black outfit. Oh yeah. That was Maki Harukawa. She was unfriendly to a lot of people but why was she being nice to me? I mean I was more antisocial than her and I was much more rude but still. She was kind of popular. She was friends with people like Chiaki Nanami, Kyoko Kirigiri and her boyfriend was Kaito Momota.

"Are you okay?"

"I guess.."

"You were thinking out loud."

"Oh I'm sorry.. I didn't mean to.."

"No... I'm just kind of worried. You seem like a decent person so..."

"Really? You think?"

"I guess... What happened?"

I explained it.

"So Trash is your only friend? I see... why don't you come sit with me and some other people..."

"Okay..."

When I got there I saw some other people I knew but never really talked to like Aoi, Chiaki, Kyoko, Himiko and... Kaede... She kissed Rantaro... I tried my best to just ignore that bitch. She tried to start simple conversations. I just replied quickly. I think she knew I was mad at her but neither of us wanted to discuss it now. I was really pissed because I always sat under my favourite tree but now the boys sit there without me. Trash is back to doing what she said she didn't before she had friends. She's not on good terms with the boys other than Kokichi either. I honestly didn't mean to get her involved...

After school I stayed late because I knew that I should study in the library a little and because I knew it was a way to avoid them. I did expect Byakuya there and I was right because he usually stays at school until 5:00 pm. I decided I would leave at 7:00 pm because the school lets out at 4:00 pm but students can stay to study or for clubs until 7:30 pm. I went to the other side of the library so he wouldn't see me. I could feel daggers glaring from behind me from somebody. Of course the one and only Toko Fukawa, the girl he kissed in front of me. She glared at me then snickered but I just rolled my eyes and ignored her. After a few hours it was 7:00. Byakuya had left already so I was good.i decided I'd buy myself a bubble tea since the cafe was right there. After I finished I left. The annoying part was I usually had to walk past his mansion to get home. There were other routes I could take but because they didn't have street lights I didn't wanna run into anybody. I could kill them but I've been taken by surprise before. I also would just rather not run into any pervs at all.i was walking past his house and I hoped he was inside but nope they were all in the backyard and the gate was open so they could se outside. Kaede and Sayaka were there too but Toko wasn't... whatever I don't care. I put my hood on and decided to keep the mask off so they might not know it's me.. I passed and they didn't seem to notice and I gave a sigh of relief. Maybe too soon. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I looked around to see Rantaro. You're kidding me right?

"Wow the timing is perfect." He said calmly.

"Let go." I say firmly.

"Nahhh I need to talk with you."

He told me to follow him into the backyard where I saw the asshole crew. That's what I called them. It was Togami, Kuwata, Amami, Fukawa, Akamatsu and Maizono but Fukawa wasn't there. And I guess now I'm addressing them by last names. I've lost my respect for them.

"Sit down." Togami said.

"Okay cheater. Just know you guys have delayed my walk home and that makes me more pissed with you."