Queen of North

My life without you is incomplete

'Xavier please, you need to take rest. Don't speak out' I said holding up his hands
It feels so nice to see his moody face back. He has got same beautiful eyes but this time it was shining brightly with dark blue colour.
'No Ana, you just listen to me baby. I am sorry and please forgive me' he said
'Shut up you idiot and take rest. If you keep on apologising than I'll never forgive you' I said
'Thank you Ana, I love you baby' he said
I feel like replying him loudly 'I love you too Xavier' with all my heart but still deep inside my heart something was blocking me. I was thinking how will he react? Or will he accept/reject me? Now I don't have any power left and I can't survive his another rejection.
I have finally realised this true love for me and I'll always love him no matter where I go. Those past memories are enough for me to move forward in my life.
'Don't you dare scared me again by dying in front of my eyes' I said making his eyes wide open (I tried my best to hide my feelings)
'Dying? You mean I was dead?' he said
'Yes idiot, you gave up your life to save mine. You were dead for nearly a month. Everyone told me to burry your body but I became stubborn thinking that you will returned back' I said
'Ok you little stubborn girl, can you tell me how I became alive?' he said sweetly
'Hmm... I don't know, I came here to visit you and you were opening your eyes. Anyways, I have to leave now, please do take care of yourself' I said and leave him behind.
I told everything to my friends Dorian, Winston and Bella about saving up Xavier Life. I thought they will all freak out about my dump decision but nothing happened like that. They were all so supportive towards me and told me that they are proud to have a queen like me.
Everyone in this selfish world choose power over life but I was the first one to choose life over the power. I even told them that I don't want them to tell anything to Xavier about losing my power and I want to return back to North.
They all seems to understand my situation but Bella keeps on telling me that Xavier truly loves me and he won't reject me like before but I don't want to take any risk.
I already made up my mind to move to my kingdom with my friends and told her that she can stay with Aiden in south making her happy.
I packed all my stuffs and moved to North with my friends. I request my grandma not to let Xavier inside the North Kingdom as I don't have any energy left to face him.
Grandma agree with me and told me that she can give me my mom's power as she extract her power before she died but it won't be as powerful as I had it. I did happily accept my mom's power which was very cool.
I mean I can be invisible, I can run faster and my wolf daisy can change her colours. Wow, I was overjoyed and Winston told me that my mom wolf must be an Assassin.
I need to train once again to be a good Assassin. It was really confusing to use her power. Daisy and I sometimes become visible when in actual I have to be invisible, changing wolf colour was the funniest thing as my wolf mostly becomes rainbow colour. Ha-ha
We all are having fun in North doing our trainings and teasing each other. It's been 2 months I am in North becoming a good Assassin and missing my Xavier a lot. I don't know how is he doing? Whether he is missing me too or not? Did he get his old girl back and marked her? (Oh god, stop thinking this stupid things I said to myself)
Xavier POV:
I woke up in hospital bed where my beautiful mate was holding my hands. I can see her smiling swollen face which looks like she hasn't slept for ages and her beautiful eyes with full of love.
I felt so happy seeing her smiling at me and was confused too thinking what made her have those shining love in her eyes. She was pure and innocent same like before which was attracting me more towards her. I asked her forgiveness which she happily forgive me.
She told me that I was dead for a month and I woke up from my dead. She didn't explain me the reason for my alive and when I told her that I love her, she has a confusing feelings on her face.
I can clearly see her eyes showing lots of love for me but don't know why she is not accepting it. She only told me to take rest and left the hospital room. I can't believe that was the last time I was seeing her.
I don't know the reason behind leaving me, why is she ignoring me when I can see love on her eyes? Is it because I doesn't deserve her love? Was my love that much selfish that she still rejects it? All I want is her to be mine.
The feeling inside my heart hurts like a hell and this time the hurting was more than anything. It feels like I can feel her sorrows and sadness, she is hurt deep inside her heart and she has got so much things to explain.
My pack members came inside the hospital and they were all shocked to see me alive as if I was a ghost. I asked them what's so shocking which they burst out crying making me shock.
Alex told me that this can't be possible as doctor already told them 'I was dead'. It was only Ana who kept everyone shut with her Queen power and preserve my body for a month believing on me.
Ana told them that she won't let me die and I wasn't dead. No one knows where Ana went after threating everyone and when she returns back after 23 days, they only see her leaving my hospital room which made my pack rushing to meet me.
Eden told me that Ana cried for days and Night looking at my dead body. She didn't let anyone touch me except Winston and Dorian who was helping her to preserve my body. She has become lifeless without me and she left? But why? I need to find out the reason.
I returned back to my pack house where doctor told me to take rest for at least a week to recover. But surprising, I recover within a day making myself shocked. I couldn't understand what was happening to my body. It feels like I got a huge power inside myself which was doing all this miracles.
I asked Alex and Eden to search for Ana and bring her to our pack house since I haven't seen her from yesterday. I then went to the training field where other warriors were training. It made me happy to see my pack members trying so hard to keep themselves strong.
I thought of practicing my earth power once again since it's been a month I was dead after that fight. I went inside the forest and used my Earth power to create a wall and surprise to see the miracles in front of me. The wall wasn't just the ordinary wall I used to create but it was a combination of 5 elements Fire, water, light, wind and Earth.
I did stand still there trying to figure out what just happened and thought of trying once more which results same. I did try to use fire element and it burned down the whole tree in front of me. What the hell is happening? How can it be possible?
I need to find out all the reason behind this and only 'Ana' will be able to answer it. I have to get her back into my life and my pack. I waited for Alex & Eden until they arrived making me burst out in anger.
They told me that they have searched here everywhere but couldn't find her. This made me so angry and I went personally to search of Ana.
I too searched her everyplace I knew, I even went to Silver Night pack and apologies for all my father sins asking them about Ana but no one knows about her.
Then I saw Bella red hair girl standing in the corner trying to hide herself from me. So I threaten her which surprisingly she speaks out saying Ana left me forever heading towards North.
She did explain me everything and the reason behind my power. She even told me that it's impossible for me to go to North without Moon Goddess permission. I felt so heart broken and my tears started to fell down.
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I told her that I love Ana and I will never repeat the same mistakes which I did it in past. I want her and I love her making others shocked. I didn't care what other thinks but I need to find my Ana.
My heart nearly stopped thinking about Ana leaving me forever. I mean how can she not believe on my love? I love her for what she is not for her power. I'll happily accept her even if she can't shift and now she left me alone. Why?
I sadly went back to my pack house and told Beta Alex to take over my place until I returned back from North. I went to North starting my cold journey. I didn't care whatever comes on my way, how dangerous it will be because all I care is about Ana.
I walked there for days and nights but still lost my way. I couldn't see anything and I couldn't give up on my life, my mate. I promised myself that I won't returned back to South without Ana. So, I keep on walking in the cold freezing weather.
End of POV