Queen of North

Realising your True Love

I was quickly pushed away by someone and saw a flashing thunder blade hitting Xavier. I couldn't believe what just happened and start to panic.
'Xavier, please wake up, Xavier' I said looking at Xavier black out body
Everyone came running towards me and saw the unconscious body of Xavier. I quickly gave Xavier my healing power but it didn't work over him. I asked Dorian and Winston to help me with their power but it didn't work either.
Seeing Xavier unconscious body, I couldn't control my feelings anymore and started to cry. He has always told me that he loved me but I never listen to him. I always hate him for that one rejection and today when I realised his true love, he is gone far away from me.
Like he always said, he did proof his true love for me by giving up his life to save mine, even not thinking twice about his pack and his ego. I feel like I am a useless mate.
Dorian carry Xavier body and went to pack hospital where doctor told us that he is no longer with us. I felt like my whole world has shattered into pieces, I can't believe my ears and shouted at doctor telling him that he is not dead.
I can't hear him breathing neither I can sense his presence. I regret all those past 3 months of avoiding him when he kept on trying to make me happy and apologies. He was like a lost puppy always following me everywhere and apologising.
I hate myself for holding up my Ego so high that it cause my mate's death. If only I could have forgiven him then I would have spent a lovely time with him. His love was true and I kept on doubting on him.
I can't see his dead body lying in the hospital bed like that. I seriously missed his every little moody behaviours, those idiot look when I ignore him, those jealous face when Dorian holds me up and that huge smile when I said I HATE Him between the fight.
He was perfect mate on every angle and I think I finally fall for him. My tears dropped down continuously and I whispered him 'I love you' but sadly he wasn't alive to hear me those words. Xavier please wake up, don't punish me like this for not realising your true love, you can't die without me, Xavier wake up idiot.
I started screaming in pain with those words when everyone asked me to control my emotions. Blood Moon pack were disaster lying on the floor seeing their Alpha dead body whereas other members were trying to calm me down.
Beta Alex told me that we need to burry Xavier dead body making me angry so I just snapped him back saying he is not dead and no one have rights to touch my mate body. I used my Queen power and voice to control everyone.
I didn't have any idea what I should do? I was lying in hospital bed for nearly 2 days looking at my dead mate and remembering those past memories. I can't lose him like this and he can't just die leaving me behind.
So I mind-link Elsa while she was crying out there more than me knowing about Xavier true love and his sacrifice. I told Elsa not to worry about me and I want to talk to Lia about Morgan power.
Lia told me that there is no way that we can get him back but she knows a witch called shelly who might be able to help us but it's really difficult to meet with her.
Lia even mentioned me that Witch Shelly lives in Himalayas and you can't reach her by any means of transport. You need to walk for 20 days without food and water and mostly people just die in the middle of the journey due to the terrified hunting ghost and animals.
She was pleading me not to go to shelly place but when I told her that I'll kill myself if Xavier didn't returned back then she give me all these details.
Seriously, I don't care about my life anymore and I want only Xavier to be alive. So I thought of meeting witch Shelly who was my last hope.