Epiphany ⇢ ❛𝘈 𝘴𝘶𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯.❜
❝And even on nights when the dark becomes sticky like tar, when I wish for something to swallow me whole so I don't have to wake up the next day, I still think of you...
My bones are Shattering, Sometimes I wish I could lean my head back, Close my eyes, And fall into a deep sleep, The kind of blackening blackness, Of Abysmal depths, Drown in my thoughts and Daydreams,
My heart is Caving in, Sometimes I wish I could throw it all up, Hold my heart in the palms of my Hands, And Clean it all out, Each ache and sorrow, every small Dent, And crevice,
I want to plant seeds in the edges, in the hopes That lovely, little flowers will grow from the cracks, Maybe that way I can prove to myself, There really is Sunshine in my Blood,
Then I'd want to Put it back behind my ribcage and it'll glow Like Suns, Maybe that'll tell me I have Fixed the worn edges and tied up the Loose ends,
A couple of weeks will go by, Maybe months if I'm lucky, With a heart blooming with flowers and Shining like a thousand fireflies,
But it won't be long until I'd have to do it all again, Vomit it all up, Cleanse myself, Reset myself, Don't worry, It is normal, I have learned to live with it.
(I am slowly destroying myself)
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