One With The Wind

A Soul

At first I found myself drowning
Into his eyes browning
That changed into an ocean
Sometimes a Forrest green set into motion

I warned him that I'm not good with feelings
He fell for loves misleadings
Curled hair like dark chocolate
I still kept my heart in my pocket

He is sweet, just a noble man
Sooner his charms made me a fan
I tried to give him my heart i tried all I can
But I knew that I had nothing left my feelings had ran

It isn't fair,wasn't fair
That we couldn't be a pair
And that also that my heart was beyond repair
The word "Love" always gave me a scare
But all he wanted to do was show a little care

I'm afraid that I've Hurt a soul
I didn't catch him or break his fall
Pictured family photos on the wall
With kids smiling screaming "Dad!pass the ball"
I guess it wasn't our call

Fast forward ,to plan the wedding
As it was,my heart was still pending
I wasn't ready
But for 7 months I had to stay steady

I've hurt a soul that showed me the way
I'm left with no words to say
Should I leave him or should I stay
His words are stoned in my heart,but my soul says they made out of clay
I should suffer..he doesn't have to pay
Because my feelings are long washed away

This soul is hurt
And its my fault I treated him like dirt
Words so exquisite he was no flirt
Such souls were meant to be protected,and never hurt

He was a pleasant sight
I adored his structure and his height
Things broke apart after that fight
One way ticket,he was in the flight
Sad news came when he went into the light

I was the cause of the goodbyes
The house was empty it was true that love always dies
All black I left the last rose and soil on his coffin with echoing cries
Months later the grave stone read "here lies"

"He was a Husband"
I touch my cheek to feel for his warm hand
"He was a father"
I know I could never face his dearest mother
"He was a son"
As I sat in the kitchen with a loaded gun

Deep down I wish I gave him my all
Silly romcoms like proposing in the mall
Screaming "I love you" in from an echoing hall
The second chance ended when I got the call

He had gone I felt chills down my spine
Missed those morning cards read"your mine"
Loading the gun,i thought about the kids a positive sign
I lied through my teeth and said "I am fine"

I could live with myself knowing I didn't apologize
It was them leaving to school that made me realise,
He came to me when I heard the bang
All at once I felt my breath hang

The gun was innocent wasn't to blame
The guilt was what overcame
I'm sorry and I love you
In the letter that was over due

To my family,its no big deal nothing serious
I had to see him to ask for forgiveness
A soul to another it was my business

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