Expectations

Part 4

"Y/N, this stew is wonderful." Mrs. Park gives you a warm smile. You laugh shyly and shrug. "I wish I could say it was super complicated to make but it isn't too hard." Mrs. Park puts down her spoon. "You'll have to give me the recipe for this later." Quiet subsides over the table, the only audible sound is the clanking of silverware. Somehow the sound of the spoon hitting the bowl sets you on edge. "Y/N?" Mrs. Park turns back to you. You immediately feel your body tense up. It was coming. It was coming again. The questions. "Any progress with pregnancy?" You hear Jinyoung drop his spoon next to you. He clears his throat. "Mom, Y/N and I have been trying really hard. It'll happen sometime, okay? Please stop pressuring her." Mrs. Park sighs, setting her napkin down. "I'm not pressuring her. I'm just...concerned."

You turn to look at Jinyoung, whose face is in a scowl. "Mom, every time you come you bring up pregnancy!" Mrs. Park pouts. "Your father and I just really want a grandchild..." You can see Jinyoung getting more and more irritated. You gently put a hand on his mom's shoulder. "I promise we will have a baby. Plus, there are some methods we haven't tested out yet." You immediately hate yourself for saying something slightly suggestive. Mrs. Park blushes, and slowly nods.

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You are finishing washing the dishes, when Jinyoung appears behind you. "So what was that all about, Y/N?" You stop washing the dishes and turn to look at him. "What do you mean?" Jinyoung chuckles and raises an eyebrow. "Methods we haven't tried yet?" You blush and scratch your head.
"Um.. I just meant there are things we haven't tried yet as far as you know....." Jinyoung raises an eyebrow and smirks at you. You sigh. "I'm not going to spell it out to you, so stop it." You turn back to the dishes, turning on the facet. Jinyoung leans over and kisses you on the cheek. Before he pulls away, you feel him lean against you. "I look forward to seeing what new methods you have." He snickers as he walks away, leaving you a blushing mess.

The truth was...Your therapist had suggested some things to try once you had worked on your non sexual intimacy. Jinyoung was teasing you, but you weren't sure if that meant he wanted to try again. You didn't want to rush in too quickly and ruin the progress you made...

You didn't have to press Jinyoung for answers because he was asleep when you entered the bedroom. You made a mental note to not take his teasing seriously.

It was Sunday morning. Jinyoung usually spent an ample amount of time reading the newspaper in the morning before going to the gym. You decided to take advantage of this, and go shopping. Jinyoung watched you put on your purse and shoes suspiciously. "Y/N, you never head out this early on a Sunday." You shrug and give him a peck on the lips. "It is for a surprise."

You weren't lying. It was for a surprise. Whether or not it would be a good surprise was debatable. That depended on Jinyoung's reaction to it.

You hoped it would produce some sort of reaction. You had never really shopped for fancy lingerie before. You had no idea how embarrassing it was to have someone pick out bras and panties for you. Although, the woman working there was very helpful. She picked out a color that complimented your skin tone. You didn't want a super vivid color like red or black. You figured Jinyoung would like something softer.  In the end, the woman choose a soft pink. You had to admit, the lingerie set did compliment you well. Though, you found it a bit silly to have the gown that went over it practically sheer.

Maybe this was contributing to the problem. Your sex life was far too vanilla. Just because it was vanilla, it didn't mean it was not pleasurable. Jinyoung was extremely thoughtful and skilled in bed. Your orgasm always came first, not his. The more you thought about it, the more guilty you felt. Maybe you weren't giving him the same amount of pleasure he gave you?

You arrive back at your flat, completely immersed in your own thoughts. You can see sneakers by the alcove. Jinyoung's. As you close the door behind you, you can hear water running. He obviously went to the gym. This gave you enough time to shove your "surprise" in your wardrobe.

Not even a minute later, Jinyoung walked out into your bedroom. Steam ebbed out behind him. "Hey babe, have fun shopping?" You nod and give him a smile. "I guess you can say so. I bought something different than usual." Jinyoung scratches his chin. "Like what?" You grin and give him an innocent shrug. "You'll have to wait and see." Jinyoung whines and you give him a playful shove.

Jinyoung decided to go to a French cafe that night. It was luckily open on Sundays. Jinyoung would usually do the grocery shopping on Sunday, but decided to go out and eat instead. It was a pleasant change.

The two of you sat at a small table near the window. You could see the other shops along the streets buzzing with light and people. It wasn't late, but the sun set early in the winter. The street was already getting slightly dark. You take a small sip of the red wine that Jinyoung ordered and savor the taste.

Jinyoung watches you, smiling softly. "Y/N..I wanted to apologize to you." You immediately place your wine glass back down on the table. "Apologize, for what?" Jinyoung lets out a loud sigh. "My mother. I know it has been hard on you...I also know how badly you want a baby. I'm sure it doesn't feel good to have her constantly asking."
You nod softly. "Well, it isn't easy."
Jinyoung pauses before continuing, "I'm also sorry I haven't been...Trying much lately. I just...I want our intimacy to feel special- not forced." You smile at him. "I understand that now."

Jinyoung watches your face before clearing his throat. "Although, I think I'm ready to start trying again. That is- if you are." SUCCESS!!! Finally. You could almost get up and cheer.

"You have no idea how happy I am to hear that." You are practically grinning from ear to ear. Jinyoung chuckles and smirks at you. "Really? Did you miss my touch that much?" You blush and roll your eyes. "Maybe." Jinyoung's smirk becomes even bigger.