My Heart Is Nuclear

End Of The Earth

Warning: This chapter already includes smut, proceed at your own risk! ◉_◉

Damien's alarm went off. He woke up exactly at the time he planned to, 8am. Damien was both excited and nervous for this day, today would be the day that the shooting for 'Smosh Summer Games: Apocalypse' would begin. The only thing Damien actually knew about this years games was that it would take place in a desert, the last two Summer Games were some of Damien's nicest memories from Smosh, so it wasn't any surprise that he got himself pretty enthusiastic for this day. After Damien finished his breakfast he walked upstairs to get changed. He put on some random jeans he grabbed from his clothing rack, and put on a simple beige shirt. As he was putting on his socks, he realized something. Shayne would be there, the person that made Damien dread arriving at his work every day. Because of Damien's crush on Shayne, he loved being around him, Shayne was the person that brought Damien the most joy while at work; but he also hated it, since Damien couldn't stand being around Shayne while not being able to express his true feelings for him. After getting ready, Damien checked his phone before going out and walking to his car to drive to the Mythical Entertainment office building and meet his fellow colleagues.

Damien's P.O.V

'I should almost be there' I say to myself, while checking the time. It takes about 15 minutes to get from my house to the Mythical Entertainment building. While I'm driving 'Radioactive' by Marina and the Diamonds comes on shuffle. 'Hey, this is relevant' I think to myself as I pay close attention to the lyrics of the song. I'm so conflicted about the next few weeks, on one hand I'm excited because Summer Games is always fun to shoot, but on the other hand it's so frustrating to be around Shayne while he keeps seeing me as a 'friend'. I see him almost every day, and every day I feel the same: completely miserable. I've told myself a million times to just give up and let it go, since he isn't even gay anyway, but there's still this part inside of me that wants to keep trying. I just need to promise myself that this time I won't be trying with him, not that I've done that before, but I haven't ever felt stronger feelings for Shayne before than now, so I just need to be extra careful.

"When you're around me I'm Radioactive, my blood is burning Radioactive", the lyrics coming out of the radio remind me of my feelings towards Shayne.
'Shayne Topp, you make me lose control every time I'm around you...' I mutter silently. The final chorus of the song finishes just as I arrive at the office building. I look out of my car window and I see most of the Smosh members already gathered around the bus that we'll use to travel to the shooting location. Ian and Noah notice me and start waving at me. I wave and smile back, but I wait for Radioactive's outro to finish playing before stepping out of my car. Once I step outside, Shayne is the first person I notice in the large crowd of people. I freeze for a few seconds, and I start to unconciously examine his beautiful facial features, as I'm looking at him I can notice his blue eyes staring right back at me.
'Damien, stop, this is weird.' I immediately think to myself, and snap out of the trance that Shayne put me in.
'Well, hi guys!' I say, everyone greets me back, but Shayne's response is the only one I focus on. I squeeze myself in between my colleagues, and stand next to Courtney. It's too awkward to be around Shayne right now, he'll notice that I'm totally drooling over him. After that, a silence of a few seconds followed, but eventually someone breaks it.
'So do we have everyone now?' Noah asks.
Noah's question makes everyone examine their surrounding colleagues. 'Yeah, we've got everyone,' Ian responds.
Courtney leans in closer to me, 'Keith and Olivia are driving to the location themselves.' she says.
'Ah,' I was already noticing their absence.

A few minutes later, everyone has taken a seat in the bus and we're taking off to the desert. Since I saw Shayne taking a seat at the front, I decided to sit at the very back, next to Ian and Lasercorn. I might have to endure their shenanigans for the entire ride, but it's better than sitting any closer to my crush. Some time into the ride Shayne starts imitating the most crazy "Apocalyptic accent". I burst out laughing, but do my best to contain my blushing, not even a few seconds after that Lasercorn shoves a camera into my face attempting to gather more footage for the vlog. I try to act as naturally as possible, I obviously don't want them to have any hints of me blushing over Shayne on camera. After about an hour of staring out of the window while listening to my music playlist, I notice that we've arrived at our destination. When I step out of the bus I see the multiple cabins we rented out for the duration of the games. Once everyone gathered their luggage they start gathering around Sarah and Matt, who are listing out the groups that would be staying in each cabin.
'Alright, Ryan and Matt will be sleeping in the cabin to our left,' Sarah points to a sleek modern white cabin. Doesn't really look that apocalyptic to me, but I quickly realized that it doesn't matter anyway, since the viewers won't be seeing much of the cabins on-video.
'Courtney, Olivia, Mari, Kimmy and me will be staying in the cabin to our right.' this time Sarah points to another cabin that looks similar to the one the referees will be staying in. I wonder who my "cabin-mate" will be, please let it be anyone but Shayne. Once Sarah starts listing more names I'm starting to become worried, neither me or Shayne have been listed yet, and it's between me, Ian, Keith, Noah and Shayne now.
'Keith, Noah and Ian will be staying in the cabin at the very back, and Damien and Shayne, you guys will be staying in the cabin behind you.'

Shit. Once I fully processed what Sarah said I realize that I'm going to spend most of my days around Shayne the next few weeks. Once he hears that we're staying in the same cabin, Shayne turns his head and smiles at me, I smile back at him, I hope I didn't blush. Now that everyone's been divided into their cabins, Shayne and I carry our luggage to our cabin.
'Should I help you?' Shayne offers.
'N-no, I'm fine,' I stutter back, 'but thanks anyways.' Shayne smiles and carries on walking. On the way to our cabin, I can't help myself but look at Shayne's big arms, and his pecs bulging out of his shirt. The rush of blood inside me and the intense heat outside makes me instantly sweat. Once we arrive at the cabin Shayne notices the sweat dripping down my face.
'Whoa, you're sweating a lot,' he says as he puts his suitcase down on the green carpet inside.
'Thanks Mr. Topp, I definetely hadn't noticed yet.' I think, but the reply that actually came out of my mouth sounded a lot nicer.
'Yeah it's just really hot outside... and all of this walking...' I lie quickly. Of course I can't tell him that I'm sweating because I find his muscles attractive. We both start analyzing the cabin, and quickly realize that there's only one double bed.
'There's only one bed.' I say while doing a weird mixture of grimacing and laughing, before I know it blood is rushing down at just the thought of being in the same bed as Shayne.
'I can go to the other cabins and ask if they have another matress?' Shayne suggests. Now that my mind got excited over us sharing the bed his question catches me off-guard, 'I- I mean- no you don't have to. I-I don't mind us sharing the bed... i-if you don't mind of course,' a messy word salad is the only thing that is able to leave my mouth right now, but I think I at least created a coherent sentence.
Shayne chuckles, I hope he hasn't noticed my nervousness. 'I don't mind,' he says, while handsomely smirking, which makes my entire face turn red in the span of a few seconds.
'That's settled then!' I yell while I throw my fist in the air like a superhero. I have no idea why I did that, but anything to distract Shayne from my blushing. Shayne bursts out laughing while looking at the goofy pose I took.
'Your sense of humour amazes me, Haas,' he says, still laughing.
Oh Shayne, I wish you wouldn't have said that, now I'm blushing again. 'T-thanks...'

Some time passes and it's 9:30pm, Shayne and I are outside of our cabin. We spent the entire afternoon in the cabins of the other Smosh members, we had a lot of fun, especially when Mari, Kimmy, Wes and I pulled a prank on Joven. During the day I did my best to avoid Shayne, I wish it wasn't needed. I wish we could lay together in eachothers arms, continually telling we love eachother. But realistically speaking, that won't ever be a reality, so I need to get that thought out of my head. Instead I wish that I would've never fallen for Shayne. Once inside I open my suitcase and grab some dark blue pajama bottoms and a black Mortal Kombat shirt I won at a comic con once.
'We'll have to get out at 7 tomorrow, so it's a good idea if we get in bed right now,' I say, Shayne nods in agreement, 'I'm gonna change so don't look, alright?'
'And what happens if I don't?' he replies jokingly while he rests his hands on his hips.
'There'll be horrific consequences, Mr. Topp!' I yell in Shayne's Apocalyptic accent. We both burst out laughing, once Shayne turns his back to me I remove my clothes and start getting into my pajamas. The feeling of undressing while Shayne is near excites me, and I immediately feel that I'm getting a boner. If Shayne sees this my life is over.
'You can look now!' I say while quickly jumping under the bed covers, hiding my boner. I grab my phone off of my bedside table, and the moment I turn around I see Shayne taking off his shirt and unbuttoning his pants. I let out an audible gasp when I see him, and he is visibly embarassed.
Shayne blushes, 'O-oh... m-maybe I should put my shirt back on?', he says while grabbing his t-shirt from the ground.
'N-no, it's alright, I-I was just... surprised,' I nervously chuckle. Shayne seems relieved, and continues taking off his pants and puts on some light-grey sweatpants.
'I would've put it back on if it made you uncomfortable... but it doesn't, so...' he says while lifting his shoulders up, and not much later he gets under the duvet and also grabs his phone. I take quick glances at his chest, which he has exposed outside of the covers. With every glance I can feel my penis getting harder and harder, 'Focus on your phone and nothing else Damien,' I scream in my head, I hope Shayne doesn't notice my face suddenly turning into a colour similar to that of a tomato.
A few minutes pass, 'I think it's time to go to sleep now,' I say, while reaching my hand out to put out the nightlight. As I'm putting out the light, I can feel my heart beating faster and faster.
'I agree, goodnight Damien,' Shayne whispers.
'Goodnight Shayne,' I whisper back. Once it's dark I can't do anything else but think about how crazy this current situation is: I'm sleeping in a double bed, next to a shirtless Shayne. What the actual fuck is happening right now.

Author's Note:
And that's the first chapter of the fanfiction done! Of course let me know what you thought of it, and what you think is going to happen! I greatly appreciate every comment!

- shaynediamandis