"This what they do to younger sisters "she said,
And abused me for hours till dawn broke in the sky,I passed out cold with the dirty piece of cloth still in my mouth. My skin was torn due to multiple hits by her belt. I was punished again and I knew that this would continue .
My dream was a nightmare - saw her abusing me while I'm tied with her her hands around my neck chocking me..
I don't want to be punished ; but I still make mistakes and pay dearly , almost everyday.
Hungry; even if there are stacks of food at home
Punished; even if mom calls me the cutest daughter ever
Breathless; even if there's oxygen all around
Voiceless ; even if i know how to talk
Dying; even if everyone survives
Forced to suffer,
In the darkness,
Fueled by the fire of her anger.
My classmates with elder siblings are really good at hiding their cuts, their bruises,their pain. I ,in the othr hand ,keep stumbling over my own name .
So easily they laugh ,so easily they forget ,what their siblings do ,it happens to everyone right ?
Should I too ignore ?
But I know it hurts to be punished everyday ; I still try to be perfect in every way. I have no right to mind what she does becuse I deserve it.
I must have had done something wrong
That's why I'm in pain
Everyday.
They say victims reflect their trauma on others , I don't want to I can't do so .
But the cruel world is always right and I'm always wrong ; that's why i deserve to be punished ,she says, just to punish me and I know I deserve it but I don't want to
I don't want to
And I'm sure I'll reflect it on others without a sign
