One thing you should know, I believe that until I find 'The One' I will never look any person in their eyes for a few seconds. I don't really know why I do this, but sometimes I feel that if they look at mine and I look at theirs they can see me. The real me. The pain, the hurt and the smile. But what’s a human without any pain?
Thinking about WhiteShadow made me realise just what 'pain' I was putting myself through. Yes, he made me happy and I had never felt such dedication to him. But he caused me to nearly lose my friend and caused me to feel regret after regret. The more I thought about it, the more I realised maybe this was a game. Heck, I'd never met him before, but a smile always formed when I read his name, but just like every time, I realised I could never love him. So why did I feel this way? This cannot be love. No, my mind just believes what she cannot hold.
WhiteShadow: Hey, my little pumpkin, you have arrivedddddd
Charlie: Indeedy Sir Shadow, I have
WhiteShadow: Ah, Me Lady, you flatter me
Charlie: And why is that Dear Shadow?
WhiteShadow: Why, you only come on here for my company ;)
Charlie: Oh you have me mistaken, my boyfriend mentioned free cookies.... who are you??
WhiteShadow: BOYFRIEND?! I never told you there were cookies ;)
Charlie: Well played dear fellow, well played: P
WhiteShadow: So how have you been?
Charlie: Um, fairly well
WhiteShadow: What’s happened?
Charlie: I've kinda been trying to find out who you are???
WhiteShadow: And how’s that working out for you?
Charlie: Honestly, I think I'll stick to not knowing.
WhiteShadow: REALLY?! Well I do apologise if I made you stop searching for your best friend.
Charlie: I mean no offence, but well yeah.
WhiteShadow: Charlie, Little One. I understand that this may be difficult for you but I don't want you to feel pain. Your amazing, no your more than that. You don’t believe it and think it’s a fairytale but in real life I'm just the guy next door. if you don't know who I am, I can think about you in every lesson of every day, sit next to you, see you on the field and you still won’t know. I'm just an ordinary guy, with an ordinary double life, but I speak to the most beautiful girl.
WhiteShadow: Talk to you tomorrow, sweet pea.
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And for the first time in my life, I smiled at the reflection in the mirror. The words now confirmed. The words I dared say, but could now be spoken. Staring into the reflection of my smiling wonder, I spoke, a mere whisper but loud enough for my heart to hear.
“I'm beautiful”.
And I didn’t give a cookie about anything for the rest of the week.
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