creep you up

Tick Tock Tick Tock....

It's like this feeling in my heart and gut that makes me wanna rip them off,
It's like this tale without a real ending that makes me wanna tear those pages off.
It's like someone you know like a family and thus can walk over their feelings.
All these just wanna make me hate myself more

I try to justify it, reverse psychology it, shake it, crush it, erase it, but can't help but emancipate it.
I drink glasses and glasses of water,
Count till thousand and thirty,
Shake my legs as if shaking those feelings off,
They still like a true friend sticks to me.

It's like a roller coaster that makes me feel invincible
But as we come down, I feel the earth tremble.

I have tried blowing paper bags,
I have tried breathing ten times,
I have thought of meditation
I have thought of all the wrong medications

I just don't have enough patience,
I just don't have enough time.
I lay around everyday
Even though I feel the clock running miles

It's like everyday I am having the time of my life
And it's everyday that I break something mine.
My claws reach my back as to scratch them off
Stoped by the realization that I have already bit all my nails off