I sleep yesterday 1:27am and I wake up 6:47am. I just can't not stop think about it. This is the first time someone kisses me just like that.
I did go to work very early, 7:46am did I come. My chef did come at 8:03am.
"Hey, Fatima, why are you early"?
"I bored so I came here early."
"So when will you start with you high school?"
"Next week"
(Chefs phone started to ringing)
"Hallo?" Then he was there looking at me very sad.
"Yeah I will tell her okay bye" and end the call.
"Ehm, Fatima....... Your dad had a heart attack and he died after 8 hours."
I can't believe my most favorite person ever in this earth just died. I have no one. I leaved the work, I take my things. And going home this time.
"Hey Fatima, what's up ?"
"I really don't want to talk with you."
And I looked at Kian.
"Fatima what's going on?"
I ignored him and I was keep going. Kian did run to Jamba Juice.
"What the hell is going on with Fatima?" Did he say to Chef?
"Fatima's dad died in a heart attack."
Kian was running home. He said too Ricky and Jc he will go to Sweden. Ricky was buying tickets when Kian was packing.
"Thank you guys, do not tell to someone where I'm okay just to o2l!"
They said okay and Kian drive to airport.
I was packing. And I leaved my home and was going to airport.
"Hi guys I will come to Stockholm. I tell you more later." She text to her best friends.
All Fatima's friends and her family was knowing that her dad was died.
"We knew Fatima."
I was in the airport and buying some tickets. And the plane is flying about 10 minute. Kian was already in the gate. Fatima was running to the plane cause is just 5 minutes left. Kian was still waiting.
I was in the gate, I didn't see Kian. I checked in and did go fast to the plane. Kian saw me go in so he did go in after her.
I saw Kian come in. I was so confused. I sitting in 34 A beside the window, and Kian in 34 b in middle.
"What are you doing here?" Did I say very sad. He said " I'm trying to do everything so you can forgive me."
I was ignoring him the hole time to Sweden.
(Next Day)
When we was there I asked him where he will live?
"In a hotel, cause you hate me and came the hole way for you." Did Kian say very sad.
I was thinking about the word he said to me. I feel sorry for him so I told him that he can come and live with my mom. "But Kian you for not kiss me or do something bad cause I'm still confused." Did I say very serious.
He neck yes. I was very sad for my mom. It takes 46 minutes to go home from airport. So we was there 40 minutes. I saw my mom broken, I was crying so much for her.
"Hi mom how are you?"
" not good but I saw you dad die the front of me."
" sorry mom, but this is Kian is it okay if he is staying? He is here for me."
"Yeah sure." Did she very sadly.
I was going up to my room with Kian.
"You can leave your things beside my computer."
"Okay, hey Fatima can we talk about it?"
"No Kian are you stupid?"
I walked away and did go down stairs to my mom. Kian was still on the room. He was wright how much he loved me.
"Dear Fatima I love you so much. You are beautiful you are amazing girl you are such a nice person. The first time I looked at you, I was so red in my face and my body was so hot. I trying to forgive you cause I want you in my life. I love you Fatima // Kian L"
He came downstairs and saw the things that my dad had and when the people who are taking the things away they asked if Kian can help, he said okay and put the latter in my hand. I did go to my room and read it. When I read it I had wrong about him, he is not in love with me like a person, he is in love me like a married people.
I finish the latter and a tier came out from my eye. I feeling something hurting my heart very much. I don't know what.
Today will we go to funearl and when I read the book I listen too the song Perth by Bon Iver. I changed my clothes to black clothes. Same did Kian. I was finish, so I did go down and did go to tv room and watch som cartoon. I was there and remember things that me and dad did do tougher when I was a baby.
Kian come in and saw me crying cause after the cartoon I was looking some videos when I was a baby.
"Hey, you should be breve and you should leave if cause everyone died, even me I will died soon to."
"Kian you are just 19 and I will try not think about it but i will be sad very much."
"Come on Fatima."
I did go out with Kian from Tv room. I was very not ready to go to the funeral. We was inside the car and started the car and my mom are Muslim and me to. So my mom started to put on Koran. Kian asked me, "are you Muslim?"
"Yes I'm a Muslim why?"
"No just asking."
We was listening to Koran the hole way.
When we was there they told us to go and the body to my dad was behind us. And all the people was behind the body box. When we stopped to go we should tell some beautiful things to my dad.
It was my turn, I was so scared but so sad at the same time.
"My dad was like a angel to me, when I was 1-3 he was filming me when we played and when I was singing. When I grow up he showed me the videos, it was the most amazing times to be with him. But today I have trying to not be sad cause he told me be strong when I die, people die every time. And I can't do that. Yeah..... Thank you dad for everything and I loved you all the time I love you so much." Did I say very sad.
My mom could not handle it so she did not say something.
It was time to say goodbye to the body. I was crying so much, so Kian did take my hand and hugged me so I did not see when they put the box down. I was crying on Kian's beautiful costume. I hugged him back. My sisters Yasmin & Abrar was hugging my mom.
My moms sister will move to my mom so she is not alone.
(Next Day)
