Clarity

Chapter 31

The next few days went by with no incident. Clarke went to class and Bellamy escorted her. They spent all of their time together but did not really talk. They both found it hard to be around each other. So they just chose to ignore one and other.

Clarke still made him lunch and dinner when she could. She also always made shore that she sent some home with Bellamy. She wanted to make shore his mom was eating enough to. She wanted to meet her but thought it would be weird for her to ask.

It was now Thursday and Bellamy's one day off. Clarke spent every Thursday in the infirmary with her mom. He did not have much planned for today. Just lunch with Todd who became increasingly more and more upset about the fact that he does not see him anymore.

Bellamy made his way to the cafeteria. Once he walked into the big room it was easy for him to find Todd. Todd sat in the back of the cafeteria like always and jumped up when he saw Bellamy enter.

“Bellamy over here!” Todd yelled from across the room.

Some people turned to see what the commotion was all about causing Bellamy to hang his head and quickly make his way to Todd. Todd never cared about being loud and attracting all kinds of attention. Bellamy on the other hand found it easier in life if he tried to stay out of the spot light. If no one noticed him no one can ask questions that he will not have the answers to.

“Todd do you always have to be so loud?” Bellamy asked him as he sat down next to him.

“Shut up. It’s been like a week sense I have even seen you. What are you too good for your dear old friend now?” Todd asked.

“Yes Todd I replaced you with a teen age girl.” Bellamy teased knowing that this is exactly what Todd was thinking.

“Well at least I’m being replaced with a girl.” Todd jokingly answered back.

“Whatever let’s eat.” Bellamy told his friend.

The two of them got in line and grabbed their food. Bellamy was happy to see that they were serving pasta today. It was one of the things he actually liked.

The two of them sat down and started eating in silence. Todd dug in and quickly practically swallowing his food without chewing.

Bellamy on the other hand took his first bight and was surprised that he was not as eager to eat as he normally was. He took another bight and realized that was not interested in it at all. If he was being truthful with himself it was because it was not as good as Clarkes. He could not believe that all these years he thought this tasted good.

“What not hungry today?” Todd asked.

“Just not in the mood I guess.” Bellamy answered at he pushed the plate away from him.

“No in the mood for pasta. You’re always in the mood for pasta. It’s your favorite.” Todd told him like Bellamy did not already knew that.

“Not today.” Bellamy answered.

“If you’re not going to eat it can I?” Todd asked.

“Go for it.” Bellamy said as they switched plates to make it look like Bellamy had already eaten his plate.

Once they were done eating Bellamy cleared the table. He had to get away from Todd for a minute. He did not know why but he was no longer completely comfortable around him. He assumed it was because of the way there last meeting went.

“So how is that knew job of yours going?” Todd asked when Bellamy came back to the table with a bottle of water.

“It’s better than I thought. The Griffins are not half as bad as people make them out to be. I mean Abby’s a little intense but it could have been a lot worse.” He answered Todd.

“So is it true you get to carry a gun?” Todd asked.

“Yes. It’s in my guard locker.” He told him.

“That must be cool to have a real weapon. Have you got to shoot it?” He asked.

“Just once. I had a quick training season the morning before my first shift.”

“Just one. You did not need to go back for more?” Todd asked surprised that Bellamy only had practiced once before they trusted him with a gun.

“I guess I’m just that good.” He answered with a smirk.

“You have no idea how to be humble do you?” Todd asked Bellamy.

“Not even a little.” He answered.

They sat there in silence for a few minutes. Bellamy could see Todd trying to think something out.

“Just spit it out Todd. Your thinking so hard you look like you’re going to hurt yourself.” Bellamy told his friend.

“Clarke. Did you talk to Clarke for me?” He asked.

There it was. Bellamy had been waiting all lunch for Todd to bring her up. He knew he liked her and he also knew Todd was not the type to quite. Bellamy did not know what to say. He knew he told Todd he would talk to her for him but he also knew he was not going to. There was no way he was going to try to set up his best friend with Clarke. He just did not know how he could tell him that.

“Not really.” Bellamy replied.

“Why? What are you waiting for?” Todd asked.

“I don’t know. I barely know the girl. I just don’t think it would be appropriate. Not yet.” He told Todd.

“I think you know her enough. You have been with her almost twenty four hours a day for a week.” Todd responded.

He was becoming a little defensive. This did not go unnoticed to Bellamy.

“I don’t know what you want me to say Todd? It’s never going to happen. Even if she does like you her mom would never allow it.” Bellamy answered.

“That’s why I have a man on the inside. You can talk me up to Clarke and I’m shore you can find ways to get me some alone time with her.  I mean you practically run her life.” Todd told Bellamy.

Bellamy wonted to tell Todd there was no way in hell he was going to do that. The thought of Todd and Clarke together made him very angry. He could feel his blood boil just thinking about it. At the same time he knew he was being irrational. Clarke and him were just friends. That’s what they agreed upon. He had no claim to her.

“Why do you even like her?” Bellamy asked Todd.

“What’s not to like. She’s privileged so that’s a plus, but it’s not just that. She’s hot, I mean really hot. She’s smart; she’s going to be a doctor. She’s also kind, I know you don’t believe the rumors but I do. She helps out the people of the Ark. What’s not to like?” Todd answered.

Bellamy listened to everything his friend had just said. The only problem was he agreed with everything he said.

“When you put it that way you make me sound like an ass.” Bellamy said.

“You are. You’re my best friend, so be my best friend and hook me up.” Todd responded.

Bellamy let out a loud sigh and ran his hands through his hair. He was becoming more and more frustrated with this conversation.

“Fine. I’ll see what I can do but no promises.” Bellamy answered.

He would bring it up but he knew that nothing would come from it. Even though they agreed to be friends he knew that Clarke still liked him.

He was confident that Clarke would have no interest in dating Todd.

“That’s great man. You’re the best.” Todd said excitedly.

“I have to get going my mom is waiting for me.” Bellamy said as he got up.

“Okay. When is your next day off?” Todd asked Bellamy

“Not shore but I will make shore to let you know.” Bellamy called over his shoulder as he walked away.