Habit // l.s

1. The Notebook

-2011-

RINGGGG!

"Ugh." Louis moaned as he turned over on his side to turn off the blaring alarm clock.

Louis woke up in a panic. He began frantically searching his room, looking for something familiar. He had no idea where he was.

"What the f-" Louis mumbled with a twinge of concern until he realized something.

Louis flopped back down on his bed when he finally realized that he was in a hotel with the boys; Niall, Liam, Zayn, and Harry.

He wasn't used to this much traveling. It made him feel like he never really had a home.

Louis fumbled his hands through his hair as he sighed a breath of relief and began to dress himself.

The boys had a show today, so Louis didn't bother getting too dressed up yet. He washed his face, threw on a red beanie, and some sweatpants and a hoodie to go along with it.

Another sigh escaped Louis lips as he examined himself in the mirror. "I'm not good enough." He whispered painfully. "Fuck."

He began to poke his fingers into his stomach, desperately trying to make it smaller. It hurt, but he didn't care. He just wanted to love himself again.

Small droplets began to form in his eyes just as he heard a knock at his door.

Louis quickly wiped away his tears.

"Come in." His voice cracked.

The knob of Louis' door swiftly turned and in walked an ocean of energy and bleach blonde hair.

"Louis!" Niall shouted.

He had a huge grin on his face that could light up anyone's day, but not Louis'. At least not today.

"Hey Niall." Louis said quietly.

Niall raised his eyebrow. "You alright?" He asked, concerned.

"Yeah. Just a bit tired." Louis lied, avoiding eye contact with the blonde boy.

Louis couldn't stand lying to Niall, but he really didn't feel like opening up to him. Not right now.

"Well wake up!" Niall teased playfully.

"Cause we've got a show tonight!!!" Niall began dancing around the room with excitement, which made Louis crack a smile.

Louis couldn't deny it. No matter how horrible he felt, Niall always made him feel better. Louis really loved him.

"Oh Niall." Louis giggled as he playfully punched the blonde boys arm. "What would I do without you?"

Niall smiled sweetly, "I don't know, I'm just that perfect aren't I?"

Louis let out another chuckle, "let's get some breakfast you idiot."

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The two boys walked into the hotels self serve buffet restaurant only to find three other boys, sitting in sleepy silence.