| Love me or leave me |

9 - moving on

\1 MONTH AND 2 WEEKS AFTER FIGHT/ FELIX P.O.V

I was worried sick about y/n. he hasnt attended school in weeks. I went by his place, but no one answered. The days have seemed to stretch out and are never ending. The hallways have gotten longer, and time slowed. Its as if Im stuck. My thoughts stopped as I saw a familiar figure in the hallway – heading for the office door. My walk turned into a slight jog which then turned into a full sprint. I opened the door in time to see y/n talking to the principle and then be led into her office. I watched through the window as they talked – the principles face softening more and more by the second. She nodded and handed him some paperwork and then a pen. Her eyes held guilt and sympathy as she watched him fill out the paper.

Y/N P.O.V

With great difficulty, I explained everything to my principle. Knowing that if she knew my situation, she would gladly accept me back into her school. I told her about how my situation at home escalated and I had to leave. I was ready to give up when I was offered work at a bar. Serving tables, drinks at the bar and drink mixing. I explained how I left school temporarily to save up enough money to rent a cheap apartment and have enough money to live. Her eyes softened and I knew she wasnt going to say no, how could she? My sob story touched her heart and I was going to be accepted back in. she reassured me I had her support and sent me on my way.

I handed the papers in and left the office, I looked somewhat alive now. So no one would suspect my habit that I picked up. I saw Felixs back in the direction away from me – he hates me, doesnt he? Although I looked healthier, I defiantly wasnt. I still had no energy too move so I made it minimal and became used to the burning feeling in my body due to the movement. I rubbed my sleepy eyes as they met with Felixs. he had turned around and there I was staring at him. He gave me a fake smile and kept walking. As if nothing ever happened. A deep sigh left my mouth as I started walking towards my class.

\END OF SCHOOL DAY – HOMETIME/ Y/N P.O.V

I made my way out of the school with the other students, a familiar car was parked on the grass a fair bit away. My mothers car. I slowly headed over, curious as to why she has suddenly showed up. Her eyes lifted and met my dead ones

y/n mother: where the hell have you been?!

y/n: work, school, home.

y/n mum: home?! Home?! I havent seen you at home in weeks! So you certainly werent at my home!

y/n: your right. I was at my home

my attitude surprised her, but she quickly overcame it. y/n mum: so what? Your just leaving – leaving me alone in that house?

y/n: didnt really seem like you wanted me to stay

y/n mum: wanted you to stay?! Yeah right! What? It wasnt enough? I wasnt enough?!

Fury ran through every blood vessel in my body, y/n: what do you want me to say to that? Huh?! What?! That I left because dad wasnt coming home!? Because you didnt love me?!

y/n mum: we both know you didnt leave because of that! So dont even try lying!

y/n: you dont want me to lie? Fine, I wont lie anymore.

I waited a moment to catch my breath, starting out quiet, but ended in yelling, y/n: I couldnt stay there mum, how could I?!

y/n mum: why? Why couldnt you?!

y/n: I was in so much pain! I was so alone! What else could I have done? What choice did I have?!

My yelling gained the attention of some on lookers. Who of which I hoped didnt have to see me fall apart at the seams. I calmed down before speaking again.

y/n: I was too young to know what you were doing was wrong. I grew up thinking it was okay, that it was all okay. Im so fucked up now – why would you do that to a child?

She was speechless, mouth a gaped in shock. Unaware to the damaged she had caused. Seeing her unresponsive state, I scoffed and walked away. Heading to my new home.

FELIX P.O.V

I watched y/n and his mums screaming match. And how his words put her in shock to the point of where she just left – not even 2 minutes after y/n did. Wasnt she going to fight for him?

I decided that this was a time when y/n shouldnt be alone. I ran after him, hoping he hadnt wandered off far. I catch a glimpse of his figure. Slumped over while walking.

Felix: y/n!

He didnt stop, I doubt he even heard me.

Felix: y/n! wait up!

He stopped and slowly turned around. I could see his eyes were red and puffing already. Full of pent up emotions, spilling over the edges and running down his face and neck. He looked perfect – I want to be the one there for him in his hardest moments.

Felix: I – I heard everything. Are you okay?

He looked me dead in the eyes and nodded, signalling he was fine. I scrunched my face up

Felix: your clearly not, why I asked I dont know. Here –

I crouched down in front of him, offering a piggyback. I heard a few sniffles before he put his whole weight on my back and rested his head on my shoulder.

Felix: tell me when to turn okay?

y/n: kay.

The trip was silent except for the instructions and directions. My heart hurt as I felt my shoulder slowly dampen. We arrived at his complex and I didnt let him down, instead I bent my knees so he could unlock the door. That passcode was simple and easy to remember.

Y/N P.O.V

He practically laid on me as he put me down on the lounge, not moving for a moment. I didnt mind though – we were touching, connecting. Being together was enough. The air was uncomfortable until Felix spoke

Felix: Im sorry for how I acted back then, when we fought. It was a sensitive topic and I didnt treat it like that. I was being a brute and an idiot and Im sorry. I just wanted to help.

A knot formed in my throat and it hurt to swallow but I did, just so I could reply, y/n: its okay, I understand why you were angry.

He nodded, Felix: are you – are you still doing it?

His voice was soft, and I could listen to it for hours. y/n: yeah, yeah, I am. but dont worry, Im sorting it out.

Felix: sorting it out? Is there any way I can help?