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Renjun's hand began to twitch in Jeno's hand. Jeno shot up and watched the older. Renjun's eyes fluttered open and tears welled as he looked around. He looked at each of them, sleeping in the room, each with tear-streaked faces. 

Jeno's hand moved to Renjun's face and whipped the tears away. Renjun turned his head to Jeno and noticed Jeno had tears in his eyes too. 

Jeno smiled at him. Renjun felt a pang in his heart, had he forgotten the great friends he had? Had he let the voices and dreams overcome him?

Jaemin stirred beside them and his eyes opened and gleamed as he saw the younger. He jumped up and kissed Renjun's face and as the shower of affection was being thrown upon him, Renjun began to cry. 

Jaemin held Renjun's face in his hands as the older boy broke down."I'm sorry..." he mumbled over and over, "I'm sorry for being selfish and not thinking of you guys," he cried.

Jaemin rubbed the pads of his thumbs over the older's heated face and pushed the tears away. Jaemin cried with him. He looked the older in the eyes and smiled at him. He smiled even when he was crying. 

"I'm so happy your here, Renjun~ah," he said and hugged the older. Renjun's body shook with sobs and once Jaemin pulled away, he was no longer crying but rather breathing heavily. Renjun held onto Jeno's hand and squeezed it before he layed his head back onto the pillow. He moved Jeno's hand to his chest and placed it over his heart. Jeno could have cried in sadness or was it happiness. He wasn't quite sure what he was feeling, but the heart under his hands was beating fast. The chest rose and fell rapidly as tears squeezed between Renjun's eyes. 

Jaemin's eyes looked at the monitor and saw the heartbeats were rapid and the breathing slowing. Tears prickled. What was happening? He stood up from his chair and heard a sound from Renjun. His eyes again open watched as Jaemin left the room. Jaemin found a nurse and they went back to the room. 

Renjun's heart monitor was still rapid and his breathing shallow. The nurse explained that the younger was most likely having a panic attack or anxiety attack. She tried to ask Jeno to move but when he did, Renjun cried and latched onto Jeno's hand that was close to leaving his chest. 

Jeno sat back down and held Renjun's hand. He said something really quiet to Renjun before he nodded at Jaemin and the nurse. She glanced at the monitor and saw it was slowly returning to normal. She left the room and Jaemin sat back down with Renjun. Jeno moved the small older boy and laid with him. He held Renjun as the sun peeked into the room from the window. Renjun's eyes were closed, his breathing now even, and heartbeat back to normal. He slept with a peaceful expression as the sun hit his face with a blinding yellow.

Kun woke up and left the room with Jaemin to get something to drink from the hospital cafe. Chenle woke up and moved to Jaemin's old chair and held Renjun's hand and slowly everyone woke up. They all looked at the boy and smile at Jeno's actions. If only they knew the reason they layed together. 

Memories from months earlier flooded Jaemin's mind. The day they got home from practice and Renjun's crutches were laying in the middle of the living room. Then when he had walked into the room Jeno and Renjun had been cuddling as if their lives had depended on it. 

The others left leaving only Kun, Jaemin, Jeno, and Chenle who refused to leave his GeGe alone at the hospital. When in reality 3 others were staying with Renjun till he was discharged. Renjun woke up and Jeno got up and Jaemin sat next to the boy as Jeno left to get something to eat. Renjun just sat still and in silence, answer questions that nurses and doctors asked him when they checked up on him before he was discharged. 

Jeno pushed the boy in a wheelchair to the car, before helping him into it and sitting next to him for the whole ride back to the dorm. Renjun clung onto him as they walked to the dorm. He whimpered as they neared the dorms and the other members were home. 

He walked into the dream dorm and moved with Jeno to his room. He walked into the door and noticed the room was filled with light. He had new curtains that were a baby blue color that matched his bedsheets and blanket. 

He looked at his desk and noticed it was a new white desk with a Moomin wax melter with blue scented wax in it. The walls were baby blue and the trim was white. He smiled at the room and waddled to his stuffies. He looked at them and pulled them onto the bed. 

Jeno watched from the door and set the older's crutches by his closet. He was leaving the room when he heard a thud on the floor and turned to see Renjun flat on his stomach with a pile of plushies around him. 

He smiled up at Jeno and decided to stay with the older. He didn't want to leave. He felt deep in his heart like he would lose the older if he left the room. 

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