The Anarchy (Tododeku & Kiribaku)

The Anarchy: Chapter Seventeen- Hope for the Future

Todoroki woke up with his back against Inasa's chest and his arms around his waist. He sighed in content when Inasa buried his face in his neck, 'Last night was a mistake.' He let Inasa touch him again like before. He felt sick to his stomach. He promised himself that he wouldn't fall back into Inasa's arms, but he lied. He tried to close his eyes and fall back to sleep. He didn't want to think about anything. Everything went black when he closed his eyes. 

*****Dream*****

"Why can't you move away?" Todoroki saw his younger self with a bandage around his left eye. "I don't-" The little boy shook his head, "Don't say that you don't know!" Todoroki noticed the tears spilling from the boy's right eye. He glanced down at the wooden floor, "I don't know!" Todoroki felt the chains restraining him from freedom. "Look at what you have become. Are you satisfied, Todoroki? Do you think she's happy? You're torturing yourself! Let go of your past!" Shouto couldn't look up at his younger self. The tears spill down his face when he heard footsteps walking away. "I can't let go!" Shouto's words echoed in his head. He couldn't let go. He was holding onto his past. The chains grew thicker around his wrists. He was refusing to let go of his past. His heart grew heavier at the thought of letting go of his past. He was bound to the past, and his mind was refusing to let go.

Todoroki saw the floor change into something different. A mirror appeared under him, and he noticed that he was younger, "Get up, Shouto! You're never going to accomplish anything if you lay there helpless." Todoroki trembled when he heard his father's voice. He couldn't face his father after all those years of abuse. He managed to glance up to see his father's glare. "You're just as pathetic as your mother." Todoroki attempted to cover his ears to shut him out. "Shut up!" His old man grabbed his wrists to look at him, "You're worthless! Useless!" He kicked Shouto down. "You will never amount to anything! Stop thinking that you will ever move on! You will never-"

Shouto caught his fist, "Shut up!" He swung his fist against Endeavor's face, knocking him off. Shouto stood up, "Fuck you!" Shouto eyes widen when he saw his figure changed into Midoriya. "Why did you hurt me?" Shouto's put his fist down when he saw the bruises on Midoriya's skin. "You're just like your father," Midoriya told him. Shouto ran to Midoriya's side, "Midoriya, I didn't mean to hurt you!" Midoriya coward away from Shouto, "Don't touch me!" Shouto witnessed the fear lacing Midoriya's emerald eyes. Midoriya disappeared when Shouto attempted to hug him. "This isn't real! I'm dreaming!" Todoroki refused to believe any of this, but it felt real. "Like father, like son. You're bound to make the same mistakes your father made," the voice shrieked. "Your father abused you! Your first lover swore that he wouldn't hurt you, but he hurt you! What makes you think that Midoriya won't hurt you?" Shouto felt the voice defeating him under his words. He felt like he couldn't breathe. He was drowning in his past. His thoughts were crushing him, and he knew his life didn't matter. His father held his life in his hands and controlled him.

"You're poison, Shouto!"

Shouto wanted to wake up from this nightmare. He couldn't escape in his dreams when his past followed him everywhere. "You hurt everyone you touch!" Shouto fell to his knees and gripped his hair. He didn't want to believe these thoughts, "No, I wouldn't hurt him!" The room was filling up with water as Shouto closed his eyes tightly. "You're drowning in your past, Shouto. Do you really deserve to be happy?" Shouto saw the water surrounding him and held his breath from drowning. "Who will save you, Shouto? Do you think you can ever love again? Just give up." Shouto felt the chains grow around his wrists, bounding him to the ground. "I'm not going to give up!" The water was draining away, "I'm not like my father. I will never be the person he was." Shouto needed to confront his past and prove that he could move past this. He wasn't going to give up.