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-arthur morgan-"ᴡᴀsɴ'ᴛ ᴇxᴘᴇᴄᴛɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ." -
journal entry #138
i haven't written in a long while. i've been going on my long journey along side dutch and his men still. there was no point in even trying to stay put with them other folk i was staying with before. their faces once they saw mr. morgan and me take away that allen feller. i hope liam is well. he was the only man i thought didn't deserve to be an outlaw like the rest of us.
anyway, that arthur feller is being awfully rude lately to me. ever since we got in that argument about how i couldn't rob this place he's been givin me dirty looks and even gossiping to sadie about my misbehavior. i think it's time i talk to dutch about this. mr. morgan is being a bully and i just can't stand it no more.
my fingers fiddled with the top of my skirt as i make my way closer to where dutch is set up. he and his gal had a nice little get-up going. music that was always too loud goin, even when we're trying to sleep. but i suppose it's better than silence sometimes. "oh, lorraine i was just searching for find you!" dutch exclaimed with a smile that concerned me.
"funny, i was comin to meet with you as well, sir." he chuckled to himself and shifted his weight. i wanted him to speak first but it was apparent that he wasn't goin to. "listen, what's up with arthur goin around and gossiping?"
"mr. morgan is a man who is short tempered, but i assure you, he means well. one of my best men." dutch went on about how much he loved having arthur with him and how arthur has been with them since he was 13. it was so obscure to me.
"can you just... maybe talk to him sir? ask him what's goin through that pretty head of his." dutch nodded and waved me away with a smile. something about this place just ain't the same anymore.
——ARTHUR——
dutch called me over, telling me he had something of great importance to talk about. i doubt it. "mr. morgan!" dutch announces, making his way closer to me. "i have a mission for you."
"like i ain't busy enough, dutch-"
"oh come on arthur. this isn't up for debate. listen, i need you to go into town and get me a few things from some people." i sighed and shook my head.
"i don't wanna run them errands for you, dutch. i got more important things to do——i'll- i'll do it though. can i bring someone along with with me?" i inquired as i placed my hands upon my hips.
"yeah, sure. lorraine, get yourself ready to go into town with mr. morgan." my eyes widened as our eyes met. damn woman. i'm never gonna get away from that lady. ever since that fight we've done nothing but antagonize one another.
"yes sir." she hurried away with clenched fists. she wasn't happy. my eyes shot daggers at the old man in front of me. damn dutch.
"damn you." i point to him and turn away to mount my horse. his laughter filled the air and it just didn't feel the same as before. "real funny."
——LORRAINE——
i could already tell that arthur wasn't in no mood to be playin with. staying quiet was what i was gonna do, but that was difficult for me. i'm very talkative when it comes to arthur, but knowing that he's been angered by me, i wouldn't talk as much. i mount my horse and follow behind the man. "aren't you gonna ask what we doin?" arthur asked as we made our way onto the road.
"what are we doin, mr. morgan?" my voice held some sarcasm, but i guess that didn't shock the man too much.
"well dutch asked me to be his little errand girl for a while," he sighed and sped up. "need to get a few things from a few people. he was real descriptive." i couldn't help but chuckled even though i was still pissed with the man. he's been anything but kind to me.
" can we talk arthur? about our argument?"
"what about it lorraine?" i really didn't have anything planned to say but other than the fact that we both needed to forget about it and be strong again. "listen-"
"i'm sorry for what i did. i'm not as tough as you, arthur. i'm trying but that just ain't the person i've ever been before. it's sorta difficult for me to be someone new. i know i screwed things up for you and that i could have gotten us both killed, and i am sorry about that. truly." i guess i wasn't even expecting myself to say that.
"wasn't expecting that." arthur laughed out of shock. "it's fine, lorraine. i guess that i've just been on edge recently with everything that's going on with dutch. i mean this whole tahiti thing is foolish."
"dutch wants to go to tahiti? never thought he would leave this place." dutch has always been so kind and open with me. it was relief coming here and having him being so nice after he kidnapped me and allowed me to stay. after all, i heard that kieran kid is an o'driscoll boy. i guess dutch just needs all the help he can get. especially when he's planning on going to tahiti.
"yeah, well we need to get away from those damn pinkerton boys following us around all the damn time. they offered freedom to me if i brought dutch in. they're crazy to even think i would. i've been loyal to dutch my whole life. i've given him all i could. still am. he's just doin' strange things now. things i never thought he would."
"i don't know you all too well, but arthur, i can see the hard work you've put toward your camp. i admire that and i'm sure dutch does too."
"i hope so... dutch is just so focused on getting his money now that i just don't know who this grand plan is even for."
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i finished rdr2 and... the ending i got... my heart actually hurts. this ain't nice 😭
