The Book of Poetry and Quotes

January 21st

Well well well Hello there! It's me, K! I promise I didn't die or fall off the edge of some imaginary cliff. It's been a hot minute since I came on and posted and I apologize sincerely for this. I'll explain myself further on down this post, I don't want to bore anyone with the details this early haha!!

Sooo.. How have you been!I hope your Christmas/New Year was amazing. I spent my New Years in Lanzarote in the Canary Islands with my fiancé and my family. It really was enjoyable, and needed after the previous events. I hope I still have someone reading my posts or at least acknowledging my efforts! 

Ever since the incident happened I have managed to grow a lot personally. It opened my eyes, showed me the type of people I was surrounding myself with, and quite frankly, how far away from the person I really am that I was getting. I was beginning to be so unfamiliar with myself.. I didn't recognize any little part of me, and that was honestly terrifying. 

So I'm guessing by now you are asking yourself "What the hell happened to you?!" Don't worry, I'm going to get into it now..

My partner was invited to a small gathering in a friends house, and I received an invite to tag along as a plus one. I don't have any regrets because it opened my eyes to a lot of things, and I have always told myself to NEVER live with regret. The night started with the girls mother ordering us all a share box from the Chinese restaurant. (There was only 6 of us in the house so it wasn't a house party)

I don't want to go into too much detail as I am trying to move on and leave it in last year. I had a can of alcohol which had a very high percentage of both alcohol and caffeine. I ended up going off the rails.. It was as though I had a mental breakdown. Anyways... while this happened I tried to go outside and the sliding glass door  (Porch door) fell to the ground, shattering. I tripped over the track (where thee door stood) and fell on top of the broken glass. 

I ended up with stitches in both of my knees. I'm healing up nicely now, but unfortunately will have scars. I am so very grateful that it didn't end up a lot worse. I could have been killed. My poor fiancé stood behind me as I fell onto the glass, and to this day it still breaks my heart for him having to stand there and feel helpless. Having to watch me being rushed to the hospital by ambulance and not being allowed to come with me.

I am so very grateful for this happening to me as I feel like it brought us even closer, as a couple. I feel closer to my higher self. It opened my eyes a lot to the situations I was putting myself into. I'm very glad to have gotten myself away from it all. 

I just hope after reading this you please be careful. Do not let fear stop you from doing anything in life, and I don't write this to try and scare you away from letting go and enjoying yourself, just please do so while being careful.

Also, never try to fool yourself by pretending to be someone else, especially just to fit in with the company you are in, because you will never win.

LOVE YOURSELF

Like I Love You, 

Please.

Love From,

K. xx