I love you but do you love me?(BoyXBoy)- Completed

*Blood tear drops

Chapter One

POV: Dahvie

I walked down the street in the dim dying light deep in thought. I'd known that I liked Jayy for awhile but after seeing him kiss Jeffree I realized just how much I want to be able to call him mine. As soon as I reached the front door I heard Jayy and Jeffree talking and laughing, I debated not going inside but Jayy must have heard my footsteps because he had opened the door and was looking at me with a concerned look on his face.

"Where have you been Dahvie?" Jayy asked pulling me into a tight hug "I was so worried about you".

"Just on a walk" I replied pulling out of Jayy's warm grip, a look of sadness and hurt passed across Jayy's face but it was gone in an instant "I'm fine really okay?" I told him but I could tell by the look on his face that he could tell I was lying.

"Please don't lie to me Dahv" Jayy begged and I instantly felt guilty, I hated lying to Jayy but there was no other option in this case.

"Please just leave it Jayy" I said, trying to hide the weakness in my voice "I just need space right now".

"I just want to help you" Jayy mumbled quietly "but you won't let me" He looked at me for a second and I saw a tear sliding down his cheek, without a word Jayy walked away and slammed his door; Jeffree got up a second later and followed him. I sighed and headed to my room,I locking the door I took out a little red box from It's hiding place.

"I'm so sorry Jayy" I muttered to myself as I took out my razor blade from It's case, I promised Jayy I would stop cutting but sometimes I need it, times like this. I was about to make the first cut when the door suddenly opened making me slash my wrist deep in surprise.

"Have you eaten?" Jayy asked before stopping once he saw my arms, in one swift move he'd darted forward and snatched the blade out of my hands ""You Fucking told me that you'd fucking stopped cutting David!!".

"I'm sorry Jayy" I whimpered, my voice trembling "Please don't hate me" Jayy looked at me and his angry expression softened, he took a deep breath and pulled me into a hug to which I hugged back instantly.

"I could never hate you Dahv" Jayy mumbled against my hair "I'm sorry for yelling, I just panicked".

"I'm sorry for panicking you" I croaked out, we pulled apart and Jayy gave me a small smile to which I smiled back.

"Why don't you come join Jeffree and I" Jayy offered and I felt my smile fall "We have junk food, I know you love junk food".

"Umm no thanks" I declined and Jayy gave me a questioning look "I might just get some sleep or something".

" Alright but I'm taking all sharp things away from you from now on" Jayy said; his voice serious, I nodded. It wasn't worth fighting Jayy after all, he'd always win. I got up to get the box that held all my razor blades to hand it to him when the room started spinning and I could feel myself swaying.

"Why is the room spinning?" I asked dizzily attempting to grab the corner of my dresser to stay on upright but I missed and collapsed onto the floor, Jayy's worried face meet my sight before I blacked out completely.

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Authors Note:

So this chapter will be a bit different from the original was but i just changed a few words to make the chapter flow more smoothly, plus fixed  the incorrect grammar .

Thanks for reading :D.

-Nikki