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-One month has passed-

Nessa's P.O.V-
Jermaine comes back today which means I'm gonna get some dickkkk. I really missed him. It's hard only relying on iMessage and FaceTime. I heard the front door open
"Jermaine ?" I yelled out from upstairs. I heard footsteps from down the hall. Chris pops his head in my room
"Why are you here Chris ?" I rolled my eyes

"I wanted to see my girl"
"Don't call me that. I got a nigga who won't hesitate to beat your ass"

He rolled his eyes
"Nessa you've been getting thick" he glances at my stomach
I turn red. I know I'm already showing.

"Are you calling me fat"
"Nah it's nothing bad"

I hear footsteps close to my room. Jermaine walks in

"JAY!!!" I ran to him and wrapped my arms around him

"Why the fuck is this nigga in your room?" Jermaine says

"Oh he works with my dad now"

"Oh so this is your nigga now?" Says Chris

"Yes Chris now I think it's time for you to go, I need to make up for lost time with my boyfriend"

He looks at my stomach "well he definitely Gave you something to remember before he left"
He walks out.

"What is he talking about Nessa?"
Shit. I have to tell him. I'm not ready for this.

"Well Jermaine so you know you're the only guy I've ever been with right"

"Yeah now what's up"

"I'm pregnant Jay.."

He looks at my stomach as his eyes widened

"Holy shit.. how far are you? Fuck I can't have this my career just started"

"I'm 4 months "

"Is it too late for an abortion?"

"Nigga did you just say an abortion? Are you fucking crazy!" I yelled. He lost his damn mind

"Baby girl I can't imagine what it's like for you, I got you pregnant and now inside there is a life in you, know you wonderin' if this gon' make me think 'bout wifing you Like if you had my first child would I spend my whole life with you
Now I ain't tryna pick a fight with you, I'm tryna talk,Now I ain't tryna spend the night with you,I'm kinda lost see,I've been giving it some thought lately and frankly,I'm feelin' like we ain't ready "

"Maybe you feel like yo-"
he began to speak without letting me finish my sentence

"Let me finish
Think about it baby me and you we still kids ourself, How we gon' raise a kid by ourself?Handle biz by ourself, A nigga barely over twenty, where the hell we gon' live?.. I refuse to bring my boy or my girl in this world When I ain't got shit to give 'em. And I'm not with them niggas who be knocking girls up and skate out. So girl, you gotta think 'bout how the options weigh out,What's the way out?"

"Jermaine you make money what the fuck do you mean?? How could you say this. I thought you'd be happy"

"Nessa I just started my career. I won't be able to provide them with a good family structure, you live here and I don't. The best thing to do is have an abortion, I'll pay for it all "

He got me beyond fucked up.
"Nigga, you got some nerve to come up to me talking about abortion. This my body nigga, so don't think you finna force shit,See I knew that this is how you act, so typical. Said you love me, oh, but now you flipping like reciprocals
It figures though, I shoulda known that you was just another nigga,No different from them other niggas Who be claiming that they love you just to get up in them drawers
Knowing all the right things to say, I let you hit it raw, mothafucker. Now I'm pregnant, you don't wanna get involved, mothafucker?
Tryna take away a life, is you God, mothafucker? I don't think so. This a new life up in my stomach and Regardless if I'm your wife, this new life here I'mma love it
I ain't budging I just do this by my mothafuckin' self, But I still don't understand how you could say that. Did you forget all those conversations that we had way back
'Bout your father? And you told me that you hate that nigga, Talking about he a coward and you so glad that you ain't that nigga
'Cause he left your mama when she had you and he ain't shit. And here you go doing the same shit, you ain't shit nigga"

"I don't know what to say Nessa"

"There's nothing to fucking say .. you should go and think about the fact that you fucking told me to get an abortion"

"I didn't get a hotel room. I was hoping to stay with you"

"Jermaine just go"

As soon as he walked out tears streamed down my cheeks. I can't believe he told me to get an abortion.
2 minutes pass and my dad walks in my room

"Hey princess, I wanted to talk to you?"
"What Dad!"
"I heard everything from downstairs and even though Jermaine is the last person I thought would react that way, I'm gonna support you through it all"

"You're not mad dad?"
"No princess , you have good morals and I know you wouldn't give it up for anybody. Shit happens but don't worry because I got your back through it all"

My dad wrapped his arms around me and I just sobbed in his arms. At least I know I won't be alone through this.

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