stay away

the letters

Gulf looked at mew who started to shake. He was confused. Following his gaze his eyes widen. Leaning down he took the bag and put it on the table. Clothes spilled out.
"I did laundry."
Mew breathed in he thought gulf was going to leave.
Gulf went over to mew and hugged him. His arms stayed limply at his side's.
"I'm not leaving, but i need to know what you've done."
Mew put his arms tightly around gulf hugging him tight.
Shortly after they were on the couch mew wouldn't let go of his hands.
"Mew i saw the box, everything inside is gone."
Mew nodded.
He got up and grabbed his briefcase opening it taking the stack out. Returning he looked down sullen.
"I met with him."
Gulf gritted his teeth.
"I.think you should talk to him."
"I dont want to talk to him."
Mew breathed in handing gulf the papers.
"Then can you read for me please."
Gulf looked down biting his lip.
For you mew.
He grabbed the papers he started with the first one. They were in order from oldest to newest. Just seeing champs writing made gulf ill. By.the 3rd letter of apologyhe couldn't take it. They fell from his fingers and he ran to the bathroom. Mew ran after. Helping gulf he rubbed his back. Finishing he flushed the toliet.
"I'm sorry." He stuttered at mew.
Mew looked at him sad.
"No I'm pushing im sorry."
"No your just trying to help."
"Right now i jjust can't."
Mew nodded. After a bit mew helped gulf to the bedroom laying him down. He put his hand on his forhead.
"I think that's enough for tonight."
Gulf nodded.
"I'm so sorry."
"Gulf please don't."
Gulf just grabbed mews hand and closed his eyes.
Mew petted gulf with his other hand on his head getting the boy to calm down.
"Ill try again tomorrow."
"If You want, no pressure."
Trying to distract himself he told mew something.
"Remember when we had sex this morning?"
"Hmm."
"I. Thought you were going to break up with me."
Mew looked at gulf stunned.
"I was trying to get you tired so i could see champ, not a good plan but im trying.."
He was cut off with gulf smiling.
"It was good though."
They both quietly laughed.
"Mew?"
"Hmmm?"
"Will you lay down with me?"
Mew smiled.
"Move over then your taking up the bed."
Gulf smiled. They both embraced each other. Gulf made mew fall asleep first. He just looked up to him smiling. Rolling off of him he looked to the ceiling. I'm done hurting you mew, I'm done having you see me hurt.
Getting up slowly he went to the couch with shaky hands. Going to the kitchen table he breathed in. He read the letters. They were nothing but apologetic, one after another. Gulf gritted his teeth. By the last it had champs number on it asking gulf to meet him. They both needed to move on. Gulf leaned his head back processing. He looked to the bedroom door open.
"Yes we need to move on. Especially since I'm with the love of my life. Slowly he is getting my heart."
Breathing in he went back to lay his head on mews heart.
Kissing his chest he spoke silently.
"I'm going to try and not hurt you anymore."
Smiling gulf went into blissful sleep. Tomorrow he has to deal with champ.