Faking Love ~Ned Shoran -completed

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Niall~

We're about a month and a half into Ed's tour, now in California. I miss the boys loads and I wish this would be over already.

They're probably sitting at Harry's house playing Fifa or something. Without me. While I'm sitting in a freaking hotel waiting for Ed's next show.

Everyone's happy except me.

Ed's happy because he's on tour again. Managements happy because Ed and I have gotten a lot closer I guess. Whatever goes through their brains I'd like to not know. The fans are happy because Ed's back on tour, and the majority are even happier because Ed and I are dating. The boys are happy because they're sitting at home.

See. Everyone's happy but me.

Ed and I have been dating for about four and a half months now. Almost half a year. And I still hate the feeling that I get every day when I wake up not knowing what the day is going to be like. It's really gotten to me to be honest. I wake up every morning with a frown on my face. I walk around fake smiling. And it's just a matter of time until someone notices. But other then that something else is different. I can't quite see it yet. But I know it's close to revealing itself.

"Niall, you ready?" Ed asked grabbing his shoes and slipping them on.

I nodded and grabbed my phone. "Yeah let's go. Uhm, but can we stop for food first?"

Ed looked at me with that are you serious look and I smiled.

"What? I'm hungry."

Ed shook his head no. "We'll be late if we stop for food Niall. Just eat there."

I sighed and pulled on my jacket.

"Fine."

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Ed and I walked back stage and I sat on the couch.

Do I have to go into the audience tonight? -Ni

Yes, Niall.

Why? It's cold as hell and I just sit there. I mean I like his music but listening to it everyday same order for some months is kinda annoying. So what would be the point? -Ni

The point is Niall your his boyfriend and you need to be at every concert. That's why your there.

I'm not his boyfriend! -Ni

Well they don't know that, Niall. So suck it up and go out side.

I groaned and turned my phone off.

"I'm going out side now."

I walked out side and stood around the very very front. You know how at concerts there's the stage a gap, then a fence and behind that is all the fans. Yeah I stood in the gap. Yeah. Stood. The whole time. Not even an option to sit.

Some fans noticed me and I talked to some of them. Signing things. But once Ed came on I had some peace and quite.

When Ed performs it's honestly the coolest thing ever. He sounds so amazing live.

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"Thanks everyone for coming out tonight! I have just one last song for you guys tonight. This song is dedicated to my amazing boyfriend. Niall. He's standing right... There." He pointed at me and smiled.

He started to sing.

When your legs don't work like they used to before. And I can't sweep you off of your feet. Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love...