Should I surrender ?

Chapter 54

Annette-

I woke up with my heart rapidly beating. Like I ran an marathon or something. I couldn't sleep the night before. I had gotten an phone call from the detective earlier in the day. The details weren't something I wanted to hear.

He said the trail had went cold. But he would work hard to find more clues. He could start using his favors with certain people he knew. And told me, I shouldn't worry too much. That I needed to stay strong. Because I needed to be okay, present for any news. And be hopeful that my daughter would return to me.

I agreed with him at the time. But when it was time to go to bed. I really couldn't get to sleep. I felt the system was failing me, no one couldn't understand what I was feeling. My family wasn't comforting at all. Telling me, especially most of words were coming from my own mother again.

She made it out to be my fault. Even though she didn't directly say it in so many. Which made it so much worse. I couldn't stop from thinking it so also. People didn't know how I felt until it happened to them.

My train of though was going to that I needed to be aware of certain things. Then and when I was still in touch with her. Maybe I should've told her not to go to an club. But I didn't want to be that kind of mother that stick her nose into everything her child does. Plus she's a grown woman now.

Losing her would be such a blow. I didn't think I'd recover. She was my only child, my baby. Knowing she could be out there somewhere. It gave me some hope. If frighten was 60% then hope was 40%.

Despite everything, many things have been a blessing to me. The detective found me different non profit agencies plus set me up an Go Fund Me. It was setup to pay some of the bills that were piling up. Although it was relief of some sorts. Nothing would be better than having my girl home.

All I kept thinking was how I had stepped away. For what didn't seem like a long time. It had made my world come crashing down. I thought this was the last of the hurt I would feel when having gone through something similar.

I wasn't prepared back then, I sure wasn't ready now.

Please God bring my baby home.

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Nick-

There were greedy, the downright crazed fiends that showcased themselves in my dream last night. I dreamed of an old conversation I had with the so called friend before I had to do away with him.

I always wondered often why he chose to be friends with me. We were totally different. Him with his all mighty attitude. Thinking he could fix everything. Where lies I, was a loner, really couldn't stand being around people because some earlier fools. And I really didn't want to attend medical school. Just was doing so because it pleased my parents. I understood my studies but my heart wasn't in it. During that time, Vince tried to convince me that I would be saving lives. That we would open up an practice together, so on. But after awhile his talks wouldn't hold weight like they use to. So I dropped out, he was disappointed but that didn't stop him from coming around to hang out or check up on me.

And as I sat up in bed, looked over at Janelle. Then got up to clear my mind so I decided to take a walk outside. Before that I went to the closet, picked some clothes out for the girl, placed them on the dresser, left the room.

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Outside now. I walked around the property. All the while thinking of why I had the dream I had.

Was I feeling guilty for what went down ?

But it couldn't helped. I had to keep her no matter who got in my way. We have unfinished business, I wouldn't be letting her go so soon. It would be so easy to go back into the house. End her life, be done with it.

But she needed to suffer like she played a part in my suffering back then.

Funny as it seems. Having this control over her made me feel a sense of being alive. Like I've been truly awoken to all possibilities. It was freeing. Like that the last piece of puzzle had come full circle. And I had the power to put it into it's place. Without others interfering, telling me how I should act like this or be this way.

Then my walk turned into an run. I ran until all thoughts left my mind.

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I headed back to the house after running for a good thirty to thirty-five minutes. I went up the deck's stairs taking it up to the deck, was to about to open the glass doors. When I heard screaming.

" Shit ! " I said under my breath as I ran through the kitchen, rounded the corner to back stairs in no time flat. 

*** Back to the present time ***

After the scream fest that she was having. She actually surprised me by asking about the past. After all this time of her lying to my face. Now she wants to acknowledge the truth ?

But the look on her face told me confusion. Like she couldn't actually believe what she asked was facts. And that kind of confused me also.

This girl was something else. If she was acting, she'd win an award.

" So you're finally going to admit that you were at fault. And don't give me that " I didn't mean to " type bullshit either, " I said walking over to her, standing in front of her as I looked her in her eyes.

She flinched as usual, I reached over grabbed her by the chin to force her to keep her eyes on me.

" Tell me why you did what you did Janelle ? Tell me now or else. "

And she answered, " I can't, I don't why I got the image in my mind of you that's all. I really don't where it came from, " she spoke looking defiant in which I couldn't stomach one bit.

So in a fit of anger, I haled off and slapped her.

How dare she keep spewing out these pack of lies. I would get an answer one way or another.

How many want to slap him right now ?

I don't know but I think writers block approaching again. Thanks for the 47,000 reads for this book ❤