Worlds apart

Because we care

February 26, 1980

                       Asami's P.O.V

As I was finishing up some homework, I suddenly hear someone knocking, well more like banging on the front door. I get up from my bed and head to the door, unsure whether I should open the door or not, due to the fact that I'm alone.

"Mimi! Open the door!" I hear Malina yell.

I open the door to have her attack me with a hug. I embrace her with a little hesitation due to being surprised with her presence.

"I thought you were supposed to be at work?" I ask her, while she heads to the
couch and sits down.

"I was, but I faked a little headache be-
cause Celeste was acting like a total bitch. So I skipped and came here. What
were you doing?"

"Nothing just some homework." I said heading to the recliner.

She looks at me with a worried express-
ion, which I kind of hate because I know what's coming.

"Mimi.." Here we go.

"Look Mimi, I'm worried about you. Ever since Dante, you've haven't been yourself. You hardly leave the house, except for school and work. I-"

"Malina, I appreciate that you're worried about me. But I'm ok. Really I am. I know I struggled a little in the beginning after dante, but I am doing allot better." I said with a small closed smile. She looks at me searching my face, I look away from her and sit criss-
cross style. I get very uncomfortable when people just stare at me, even the people I've known for a long time.

"Look Asami, You're a Beautiful person. Inside and out. I know you don't think that, but you are. You deserve someone that is going to treat you right. I know that you'll find it, It might take you a couple of heartbreaks to find the right one, but he's out there."

I look up at her and give her a half smile. "Thanks. For always being there and being a cheerleader for me. You're not just my best friend, you're my sister. More than my actual blood sisters have to show for it." 

"Aw you're gonna make me cry Mimi.." She says as she puts her hand to her chest and raising her eyebrows. Out of the both of us, it's very easy for her to
express her emotions. Unlike myself, it's hard to open up to anyone.

Smiling and softly side eyeing because of her reaction, I decide to change the subject. "Let's watch TV to see what's on."

After Channel surfing the first ten minutes, I gave up and handed the remote to Malina, while I grabbed the February Issue of Vogue magazine with
Brooke Shields on the cover. I look at the cover and silently sigh. I wish I looked like that.

Growing up I never saw Representation for brown girls like me. Or females who were a little big. All I saw in magazines, movies and TV were stick thin Caucasian females.

I open the magazine to start looking the pages, looking for new fashion inspiration. The 70s are over and the new is big hair and bright bold colors.

"Oh my GOODness!" Malina yells out of happiness and I look over to her to see what has her so happy. "What?" I ask.

She points to the screen and I see her favorite actress of all time. Ms. Julie Andrews. It looked like she was presenting at award show, but the more we watched, we learned it was a benefit concert.

"Ugh, she is just flawlessly perfect. She's an amazing actress and a humanitarian. I want to be her when I grow up." She says while looking at her in a trance. I chuckle and continue looking at the screen. As the benefit continues, I look up occasionally, while still looking through my magazine.

"Here's a name that stands for energy, enthusiasm and talent. Michael Jackson!" I look up and see him come down in a suit and tie and immediately the beat of my favorite song that's been on repeat the past few months begins.

I start moving my head, enjoying the song and seeing him perform. Ok, so when I was nine years old and the Jackson Five came on the Ed sullivan show the very first time, I was instantly enamoured with Little Michael. I became a big fan and my crush for Michael grew as well.

But now as an adult that crush has subsided a bit. Don't get me wrong the crush is still there and I still support his music, but now It's more of a beautiful memory from the good times I had during my early teen years.

"God he grew up to be so cute. And the ways he moves. My oh my. I haven't experienced chocolate yet, But I wouldn't mind having that yummy chocolate drop being my first." I look over to Malina as she said that with my mouth open in a wide o ready to laugh.

"What? You know damn well Im right."
She says turning back to the screen.

She is right, but I would never admit it to her. As I continue to look at the screen to admire the performance, I can't help but just think how good he looks in that suit. Man he just has a way of captivating you and sending you off into another place.

As I continue studying him, I can't help but think how he resembles Mikey, just a bit. As the song ends he speaks into the microphone "Thank you...Thank you very much. Thank you very much, not only for your applause, but thank you for caring. And I'm very happy to be here and I love you all. Thank you."

That voice. Nah it can't be. Ok Asami get real. Get your head out of lala land.