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Linkins POV
'guys lets go we're gonna be late' andy says as we walk out the door and out to the van, 'do i have to come?' i ask as we get in the van 'yes' ash says 'why?' i ask again 'because we said' they all say laughing 'fine' i mumble and slouch in my seat and pull my phone out to listen to music
when we get there, there are lots of fans, the guys are kinda circled around me, when we get in the guys are taken to get hair and makeup done and i just sit on a couch, when they come back they all sit with me 'guess what' andy says i just look at him indicating for him to coninue 'your in the interview, no debates' he says smirking, i just give him the finger and give him the fuck you face, he just laughs as we all get called out, we get greeted by the interveiwer 'hi guys my name is shady, and you must be linkin, it is great to meet you' she says shaking my hand, there are two couches so i sit on one with ashley and jinxx and andy jake and CC sit on the other one 'so guys you have a tour coming up, mind telling us about it?' shady says 'uh well its our UK tour so were all excited to be touring the UK' andy says 'and is linkin going with you?' she asks again 'yeah she coming with us' ash says 'great, so linkin how is all of this? like living with black veil brides and going to go on tour with them?' she asks me 'well its all exciting, but living with them gets annoying at time, espescially when someone takes my phone' i say looking at CC and enphasising the someone , CC just laughs 'okay, well lets go through some fan questions' she says 'when are you guys touring america next?' she asks 'um after our UK tour' andy says, shady just nods, 'well unfortunatly thats all we have time for, hopefully we can work together next time your in london, but thank you so much for coming in today' she says shaking all of our hands as we walk off the stage, 'fuck you all' i say as we get backstage 'it wasnt that bad was it?' jinxx asks 'fuck off' is all i say walking to the door, they catch up and we all walk out to the van,
when we get in i sit in the very back and ash comes and sits with me, andy and CC are infront of us and jinxx and jake are in the front, i lean on ash's shoulder and look out the window 'where to now?' i ask ash 'um another interveiw, then we have a show at about 3' he says 'and do i have to be in the interveiw?' i ask again 'only if you want to' he says 'okay' i say and decide to grab his phone off of his lap 'what are you doing?' he asks 'oh only disabling it' i say with a laugh after i have disabled it for a minute 'why?' he asks again 'because why not?' i say he just laughs, and i give him his phone back 'oh why thank you' he says sarcasticly 'oh it was my pleasure' i say 'lets go' andy says as i realise we have stopped 'im not going to be in this one' i say to andy enphasising the not 'okay okay no need to kill anyone' he says with a laugh, i just glare at him when we walk in we all wait and sit on the couches, when they get called i just listen to music.
i was listening to my music when someone *cough cough CC cough* decides to jump over my fucking head 'CC fuck off' i say 'how did ya know it was me?' he asks 'um it you CC' i say 'oh shut up' he says picking me up and giving me a piggy back ride, i feel about 4 even though im 14 in like 2 months 'CC must i remind you that i am nearly 14?' i ask sarcasticly 'nope' he says, i just sigh and check my phone and see its 12:30 'are we going back to the hotel?' i ask 'yes' andy says 'thank god' i say as CC literally throwns me into the van 'fuck you' i say, giving him the finger, jinxx and CC are in the front andy and me are in the middle and ash and jake are behind us, i decide to lay my head in andys lap, 'how far away is the hotel?' i ask 'about 10 minutes' he says 'okay' i say and look at the roof of the van, 'can i stay at the hotel whil your at your show?' i ask 'if you want' andy says 'okay thanks, i would come but i dont do well with crowds' i say 'what time do you have to leave for it?' i ask 'um about 2' he says 'okay' i reply and get my phone out to listen to music.
when we get back to the hotel we all walk up to our room and we all just chill untill the guys have to go 'so you gonna come to the show?' CC asks 'no' i answer 'why not?' ashley asks 'i dont do well with crowds' i say 'oh okay' jinxx says, we just sit there for a while talking about tour then all of a sudden andy says 'oh shit we have to go' 'oh okay bye guys, good luck' i say 'bye link' they all say as they close the door, i then get a text from someone
j: hey where have you been, we all miss you
L: who is this?
J: jamie :) we're all worried about you
L: how the fuck did you get my number?
J: gracie gave it to me XD
L: fuck off
J: well sorry for trying to be nice
L: nice? your trying to be nice to me? and why? you hate me anyways
J: i dont hate you
L: bullshit, just fuck off
J: whatever bitch no one likes you, your just an emo and a faggot
with that i just throw my phone across the room and into the wall, 'why do i have to be fucked up?' i ask myself, i go to see if my phone smashed, and it didnt, i pick it up and see a notification from twitter, so i check it and see a tweet and it says
@linkinbiersack no one likes you your just an emo faggot with no friends or family, why dont you just go and kill yourself?
then i look t how many retweets and replies its gotten, so i read through some of them and just about all of them are saying stuff like i agree or she can just go die and stuff like that, i go to the bathroom and find a razor and do something i promised i wouldnt do again, i promised ash i wouldnt, and i was hoping i wouldnt break the promise this quick but as soon as i bring the razor to my wrist it feels so good, it feels relieving, i then move to my thighs, when im done i just sit on the ground and cry, when i can cry no more i clean all the blood, and steal one of andy shirts and change into some sweatpants and go to the couch and fall asleep.
'link we're back' i hear andy yell waking me up, ash comes and sits with me and the others sit on the other couches, 'ill be back' ash says as he gets up 'did you steal another one of my shirts again?' andy asks 'yeah' i say 'link?' i hear ash call out, shit i forgot thre razor 'uh ill be back' i say going to the bathroom, when i get in there i see ash has the razor 'i-i can explain' i say stuttering, all he does is hug me 'its okay we're all here for you and we all care about you so much' he says 'no you dont your just saying that, im just a worthess fucked up peice of shit' i say 'yes we do linkin, we all love you, and your not worthess or fucked up' he says 'i am so' i say listen, your not fucked up, never are, and never will be, remember that, and your not worthless, you have a meaning to be here, although you may not think it but we all do love you' he says, i just look at my feet 'do i have to tell them?' i ask 'yes but not yet, you can when you want' he says 'okay' i say 'come on' he says walking out, i follow him but instead go to the balcony and listen to boulevard of broken dreams by green day, a while later ash comes out 'the guys are going to get food you wanna go?' he asks me 'nah' i say getting up and walking inside, i go and lay down on the couch, 'your not going?' I ask ash 'nah I can't stand CC going off at Andy for driving too slow, I swear he does it just to annoy CC' he says I just laugh 'I have an idea' 'do tell' 'well were going to be in London for Andys birthday and he hasn't seen Juliet for a while so I was thinking...' but ash interrupts 'we get Juliet out to london for Andys birthday' he says 'how did you know' 'good guess but how do you know about Juliet no one has told you about her' he asks 'oh please you don't think I haven't heard Andy going on about how much he misses her god' I say he laughs 'okay we have to talk to the others though' he says, I decide to lay on him 'okay what is with you an laying on people?' he asks 'I don't know I just like to lay on people' I say 'your weird' he says 'thanks' i say 'im tired' I add 'then sleep' he says 'but I'm also hungry' I say 'just sleep you need it' he says I dont debate because i love my sleep so I fall asleep on him
A/N
Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been able to update for a while because I managed to break my laptop and I don't like updating on my phone but I decided to update because I have nothing better to do with my life because I have no friends lol but anyways I know this is a shit chapter, it's more of a filler and I have had writers block an I have no clue as to what to write but hopefully I will be able to update more often as I get further into the story,
Thank you all so much for reading and please comment what ya think
Love ya all bye xx
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