Taehyung is shivering slightly and he kisses my neck with cold lips. We stay like that, enfolded in each other's arms, for a minute or two, and it feels like the universe is reorganizing itself, and I know any anger I felt has disappeared. Taehyung...
She walked & disappeared within a light second....... I gasped for air.........
I wake up at midnight sweaty & with a pounding heart. Again that nightmare. That nightmare, never let me sleep peaceful. I let out a deep sigh. And again lay down. Checked time on phone. It's only 12: 10 AM! That complete silence in my room, i hate it! My heartache for that girl.
A sudden urge to see her, met by a childish fear of loss. An obstreperous urge seized me. I desperately wanted to hold on to her, to see her smile and unblemished innocence. This night i couldn't resist my thoughts and emotions. It is haunting me.
I cannot unlove her. I cannot forget the way her voice sounded in the middle of the night. I cannot forget the way she looked at me and smile. I cannot forget the way her lips felt pressed against mine. I cannot forget the way she made everything okay. I cannot unlove you y/n and it's killing me! Tears rolled down from my eyes as i resent the memories...
" I am so sorry y/n. I need you "
It's been 2 years. I can't move on. Those nightmares are my regular guest, even if i didn't invites it. I miss her all the time. So much, that it's turned into a dull kind of miss and i start to think I'm used to it.
But then I'll be out and or with my bangtan members, if something funny and I wonder if she would laugh about it too. And suddenly I'm thinking of her sarcasm, then her smile, then how her voice cracks when she try to talk and laugh at the same time. And all that pain of missing her comes rushing back, and I realize I haven't gotten used to it at all...
" I'm lost without you, my love"
Only the silence in my room heard my whispers.I stay awake all night and toss and turn like the sea; Y/n i wanted to hug you so badly. A hug that i wanted just to tell you that how much i love you and I want you. I wish i could see you right now. But more than that i wish morning will come soon!
Y/n POV
It's been 2 years.... I'm in India, i didn't even dare to visit Grandma. Of course I miss Taehyung. I miss his smile. His laugh. His lame jokes that still make me smile because he said them. His sudden confessions, how bold were you, Taehyung? His hands. The ones that were scarred at the knuckles but so gentle to me.
His eyes. His dark brown eyes always got to me no matter what. His hair. Black, brown, pink, blond so many colors but wonderful. His touch. It set my skin on fire every brush. His words. How everything he said sounded believable. So damn deep!
His hugs. He is overbearingly taller than me but made me feel safe. Almost like I could melt into nothingness abd still be fine with it.
" Y/n! Where were you!! "
Peachie my best friend yelled at me. If she didn't with me on my side this time, I would be a total maniac now.
" I told you so many times! Please stop thinking about him! He is a world star! You can't reach your hands to him, dear "
Yeah. She was right! He is so far away from me and my little world. I can't even reach that above. So far away, that star is shining brightly. I could see that from worlds away. He is KIM TAEHYUNG! The world's biggest boy band BTS' V.
How can i be delulu like some koreaboos! Eww!! Gross! But he did love me. And I loved him even more....
" Hey, let it go y/n. It's okay "
" Did you remember that day when you call me asked about him? "
" Yeah.... How can i forget your 3 page poetry about him "
She laughs and hugged me in between. This little brat! Always teases me. I know this brat is trying her best to make me smile. How could I got this brat as my best friend. What more i could ask for?
" Do you miss him that much? "
That question was sudden and I flinched a little. I didn't answer her. I just stared at the sky.
" Y/n, I know you love him without knowing much about him. Your love is genuine. But..... on that time.... he did it wrong... "
She paused and looked at me. I smiled and didn't looked at her, because I'm about to breakout..
" Taehyung...... Tae...."
I took a deep breathe as she squeeze my palm to calm my mind. She knows me well and my pain.
" By the way, Tell me about him, It will make you better, then just tell me "
I didn't say any word. Cause i lack the vocabulary to describe him. I smiled at her and a tear drop down from my left eye as i looked away.... I said bye to her and walked towards home.
"Taehyung is like a honey cake cooked by our grandma, the whole kitchen smells like it; he is like meeting the sunrise on the veranda, quietly discussing mermaids and distant galaxies ; he is a protector of the weak, wise king of ancient legends ; he is sunset gold on the tidal waves ; he is a bright smile, warm hugs and infinitely much kindness, perseverance and sincerity.... "
By the way he is my purple.... I smiled as I remember my sunrise, that will be never mine...
And she said to herself, " He's got a lot of girls, he doesn't need me "
Somehow far away, The Popular Guy slept with teary eyes and fake smile......
Author's NOTE
Hey baby darlings,
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I missed you all. I was busy and disturbed with some personal issues. But now I am back.
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I just love this part from EGO. EGO was totally Hobi. Totally his type. It's gonna feel like a festival at the world tour when hoseokie comes on stage to perform outro : EGO. I am damn excited 🎉🎉🎉🎉
