A Soul Survivor

Chapter 5

I lay on my bed with my head at the end playing with a old Barbie that I used to love. I mean I still love her, it's just that my interest in them has died down. But I decided to look at her because it reminded me of the old me. The one with two arms. I've recently been asked if I like myself for who I am now. It's hard to say that I do. But I'm still trying to get used to the new me.

When I look in the mirror I still see a two armed Bethany Hamilton. My eyes haven't adjusted to the one arm Bethany.

I ran my fingers across the barbies left arm, stopping at the shoulder and breaking the arm off and throwing it to the ground. Now this looked more like me. "Do you want to talk about anything?" My mom asked breaking the silence in my room. I shrugged my shoulders as she sat down at the edge of the bed. My eyes drifted from her back to the barbie. 'This is the new me now.' I thought to myself. Eventually I will like myself for who I am, and what I have to be grateful for. "At least with clothes on I thought I could look normal." I exclaimed. "Normal is so overrated." She said. I sighed in answer to her comment. "What? Who will want normal?" She asked, with a comforting touch on my arm. "Boys will." I answered. "The right boy will love you for who you are. Not just for your differences." She explained.
"Here let me show you this picture of a beautiful statue of a women my parents had hanging up in our kitchen." She added pulling up the picture on my computer.

I went over and sat on my moms knee. The picture was of a beautiful women that was obviously made of stone. She had no arms, and the rest of her body was beautiful. "She is no different than you." My mom commented. I nodded, agreeing.

"She's beautiful." I said. "And you are too, Bethany." She said. "Please don't look at yourself in any different way than you used to look at your old self." She said.

I sighed "ok." My mom left me in my room, to leave me to thinking about myself and my appearance again. I thanked God for all he had given me so far during this tragedy in my life. I was glad to have a family that loved me for who I am. Furthermore, I thanked him because my surfing future could and will be possible. I'm going to make it possible.

Hope you liked it!!
Sorry if it's a little short, but I'll try to update more over thanksgiving break.