Just The Way You Are.

Just The Way You Are. 12.

Chapter 12.

1 week has passed. 1 week. 7 days since I last saw Harry. He haven't called me or text me in 7 damn days. But I don't blame him. He was upset and it was all my fault. I should've told him how I felt too. I should've let him show me his love. But instead of that, I've always rejected him because I was afraid. Not afraid of receiving his love but afraid of people seeing us. I've spent these seven days at home. Lucy called and said she was going on holidays for a few weeks and that I could also get holidays if I wanted. Of course I said yes. I didn't feel like going to job these days.

I took my phone one more time and opened the message folder. There were a hundred of texts that I wrote for Harry but none of them were sent. I didn't dare to send them because I was afraid of him getting more upset with me. I still had his words running through my head. "I love you." "I love you." 7 days hearing his husky, upset and deep voice in my mind. Then I heard "Harry won't be mad for a long time". Those were Louis' words. A few words that I wished they'd become real but unfortunately I was wrong and so were Louis.

I kept watching TV, they said the boys were not in London once again. At first I got sad because he didn't tell me he was leaving, but then I realized he had his reasons for not telling me. Their music was everywhere now. Their faces followed me everywhere I went. I couldn't helo but sadly sigh everytime I saw Harry's face on TV or some cover of a magazine.

I also realized he haven't tweeted too much either. He just tweeted a few fans and stuff. Maybe because their management forced him to do it. I didn't tweet anything either. I wasn't feeling like doing it even though I got hundreds of mentions like "are you and harry getting married?" or "I hate you, leave harry alone, he's not happy with you". Those comments hurt me more this time. What if those girls were right? What if Harry was not happy with me now? I just had to turn my computer off again.

All these depressed thoughts were running through my head. I was feeling, sad, depressed, bad, upset with myself, I could use any bad word to describe myself right now. I didn't even feel like going out. I didn't care if I had no food to eat. Every time I tried to go out, I found myself surrounded by girls asking me where was Harry and why I wasn't with him. I just said he was working and I smiled fakely.

Perrie called me a few times to ask me how I was. I just had to lie and tell her I was okay. I didn't want her to worry about me. I was just that kind of person that liked to hide their feelings, not telling everyone how I felt cause I din't like people being worry or sad about me.

Another day passed. I woke up at 9am. It was now 11pm and I was still in bed. I didn't want to get up. My eyes were tired. They were closing down again but the sound of my phone ringing woke me up. "Louis" I saw on my phone screen when I took my phone.

*on the phone*

"Hello Louis" I said in a sad tone.  

"hello babes, how's it going?" He asked happily. For a moment, I stood in silence. I didn't know if I should say I was feeling like shit or not.  

"I am.. good" I said lying but I'm pretty sure he knew I was lying.  

"your voice tone doesn't say the same, babe" he said sweetly.  

"I'm sorry Louis, I really am" I said more sadly.  

"don't be sorry with me, Cristy. I know you mean it but you dont have to tell me" he said.  

"I know.." I replied.  

"anyway, I called you to ask you if you want to come to our place later?" He said now in a happy tone. My face turned from a sad face to a smiley one.