I Thought Three Was A Crowd

Chapter 7: It's A Yes Or No Question

Jordan had just told me that he thinks he likes Ashley. The same Ashley we just went to hang with today. What! Why! How! All types of emotions and moods were going through my mind. I didn't know what to think. I couldn't be mad at him because that was his feelings but why express them to me. 

"Kelly...Are you ok?!" He asked. 

Right now I was frozen and just lost in thought. I was going over the whole thing in my head. Was I mad? Was I happy? How could you like her? You just met her today. I wasn't really worried about Jordan. I was trying to figure out my feelings towards Ashley as well. Because, I think that I liked her as well. She was just always on my mind. I thought of her more of a friend way and I think she did, too. I looked in Jordan's eyes. 

"I'm not mad. You will have feelings for other people all the time. All that's matters is that you love me, so. I'm good." He smiled and gave me a hug. 

"I have to tell you something." I said shakily.
He looked at me weird. 

"You aren't pregnant are you?" He said chuckling,
"No. Of course not." I said laughing. I'm glad he made that joke because it kind of loosened the tension in the room. 

"I think I like girls!"
He chuckled and started to laugh. He looked at me and changed his mood seeing that I had a straight face and wasn't kidding. 

"You're playing right?" He asked confused. I shook my head in disagreement. 

"Why would you say something like that?" He asked in a high pitched voice. 

"Because I think I like Ashley." I said. His face dropped. He got up and sat up on the bed. He put his hands in his face. 

"I mean...like how..like what makes you think you like Ashley?" 

"I don't know really. I just like her. She's a cool person."

"Yea, a cool person as a friend. Not as a girlfriend." He looked so confused and somewhat aggravated. 

"You just met her Kelly. I think you might like hanging out with her but not actually like her." I was upset. How could he just tell me how I felt? I had a right to my own feelings. 

"Ok. What about you?!" I said with a angered tone in my voice. 

"What about me?!" He said annoyed. 

"You just met her. How do you know you like her?" 

"Because I just do." 

"If you can't explain it then you don't know if you like her." 

"Exactly, so you don't know if you actually like her." 

"Neither do you!" 

I crossed my arms and turned my head from him. In that moment, I realized this was the first argument Jordan and I have ever had. I didn't like to yell. I let my voice stay at a certain level. Jordan and I were always on the same page. We never had any problems but I guess every couple has their ups and downs. This was one of our downs. He sighed and came over to me. I was on the verge of crying because he really made me upset. He walked over to my side of the bed and gave me a hug. My arms still wrapped around my body.

"I'm sorry. I have no right to tell you how you feel. I just felt that you don't know what you were saying and tried to change your words. I'm sorry. And if you like girls that's all up to you. I'll still love you anyways."
I started to cry a little because I knew he meant what he was saying. He made me feel so much better even though he was the one to make me mad. 

"It's okay. I was wrong, too. I shouldn't have went off on you like that. I was just jealous I guess."
That's what I was feeling before.
"I thought that I might lose you and I would have nothing else to fall back on." I started to cry harder. He hugged me tighter. 

"I will never ever leave you. You know that. I love you with everything I have. You are my world."
After he said that, I was balling in tears. He kissed me on the forehead and sat next to me on the bed. I put my head on his shoulder. He was my shoulder to cry on. He made me feel so much better.

"I love you too and I will never leave your side." I said in a soft baby voice.
He chuckled and pulled me closer to him. I sighed and felt relieved. I went deeper into his shoulder. 

"So, What now?" He asked.