the reason its canceled is because I got no feedback on it so I lost all motivation. you can still read it but it wont make any sense at the forth chapter because I was in the middle of re-writing the first few chapters .
After making sure Suger was asleep, which didn't take long to do, i grabbed my phone, put some of my books in my book bag and grabbed my door knob but paused before leaving, and looked back at Sugers resting body. She was calm, her chest going up and down at a slow speed and nothing was there to harm her. She was safe. And that made me smile and say out loud, "you don't know how much i care about you... pip squeak" i left the room and locked it, walking down the hall with my hands in my pockets, thinking about what i said, i've only felt this feeling..well.. Since a decade and a half ago? I only know that it's been so long that I can't even identify it. But maybe my friend could, i doubt so since he's probably too tired to even know how to listen, let alone explain an emotion. But I have half of tomorrow with him so if he can't now then he can later.
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I arrived at my friends dorm room door, B793, i knocked then opened it, not caring if i interrupted him. He's probably just trying not to fall- ...asleep...? I saw my friend on his bed. Every room is set up the same so i was familiar with the layout, so, his bed would be my bed. I saw him sitting in the middle of his bed, with his hands holding each other with him hunched over and his foot tapping as fast as it could. "Dude..are you ok..?" I asked while closing the door behind me, kinda unsettled. both the desk lamps were on, but not the ceiling light. His head bolted up to look at me, he looked mentley not ok in the slightest, I honestly think he's on something at this moment. "O-oh yeah! I-i just have a dormie that has ADD and he either always has DayQuilt (totally not Dayquil) or Five H-Hour Booster, (also totally not Five Hour Energy) and i-i felt tired today so, i took a DayQuilt, the-n that did nothing so t-then i took Five Hour Booster, but then they a-all hit at the same time and i cant c-calm down, and i know i look crazy right now just ignore that" he exclaimed. I shrugged since now I knew he wasn't a crazy physco. I sat next to him and put my backpack against the bedside and got comfortable then said, "since your not tired, can I ask you something?"
"Yeah" he replied.
"So..i rooming with a girl and-"
"A GIRL??" he burst out, "is she hot? Do you like her? What class is she taking? Is she showing any signs?!?!" he asked leaning towards me as if he would never be able to ask any questions again.
"Woahhh dude, calm down," i sighed debating if i should answer him. "1.I guees. 2. Dunno 3.also dunno. 4.I assume some type of art. 5.maybe?" i replied vaguely then asking my question before he could comment on my answers, "now, my question is if you know this emotion that i have, i cant identify it myself, and its been here ever since i could see Suger normally, but i know its from her for sure"
"Uh.. i have all the questions.." he said with a very confused face.
"Go ahead, just don't say them faster than the speed of light"
"Ok..1. Whos Suger? 2.how can you see Suger normally? 3. And why is this all about Suger?" he questioned.
"Hm. 1. My roommate 2. When i close my eye that works, shes not a white scilowet, shes normal, but still surrounded but black nonetheless 3.Thats why"
"Ok, i'll freak out once i know this 'emotion' your having, what does it make you think? Or- what does thinking of her make you think?" his stuttering was gone but he was still fidgeting and tapping his foot.
"Well... this is really cheesy but..." i paused, already blushing brightly. "When i think of her, i think of how cute she is, and how well she does practically anything, and how much i care about her and that i want to protect her..and um.. I know i've never been found of touch but i want to hug her and tell her how amazing she is and make her feel safe-" i got to the slight end of my rant on how amazing she is, but i got interrupted by my friend. "Wooaahh, bro, i already know this," he pauses and smiles the biggest smile as i patiently wait for his answer. "Your inn lovvee and you got it real hard" he said pointing at me. "WHAT?! BUT I BARELY HAVE KNOWN HER FOR FOUR DAYS!" i yelled. "Well when its true it comes fast" he said laughing a little. "Oh my goooddd, is this love thing good?? What does it do to you??" i said completely confused. He started laughing so hard I swear that the whole hall heard him. after he was done laughing, he looked back up again, wiping a tear from his face. "heh..heheh..oh my, you're a wreck, and you're gonna need a mentor or something. Yes, its VERY good, but only if they don't break your heart by dating someone, saying they hate or just dislike you, and or reject you, but i doubt that she could turn you down. And i'm the love master so you've came to the right place" i rolled my eyes with a smirk and reapplied, "yeah right"
"Dude, im in a relationship thats lasted 4 years that im still in"
"Thats only because in the beginning you had me scare her crushes so badly that they transferred"
"Well..thanks but i got her to have a crush on me, you just almost killed multiple people, and thats not love, but at least if she gets a crush, you can beat him up..?" he suggested. By now i was pretty tired so i said, "im gonna sleep, i need time to process this, i'll tell you more about her later" i got up from sitting on his bed and hesitantly laid in the other for some reason, but either way i was out like a light.
idk why this chapter seems so short but its 1000+ words like everything else, also this would have been out sssssssoooooo much earlier but i guess it didn't save pwp so for the non-existent people that waited for more of this im sorry, also i have ANOTHER book im doing exclusively at school and ive just finished chapter 3 and im planning to get to chapter five then make it public so yay uwu
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Edit: so me brain did a dumb when i wrote this and the reason its so short is cause i always do 2000+ words not 1000+ so next chapter will be 4000+ so prepare your eyes.
