My Lovely Goddesses

Ch 9- His Home(world)

Blue Diamond's P.O.V

Needless to say, after Yellow took Steven and vanished from the Throne Room, I could not stop thinking about them. Especially Steven. I hoped that he was having a good time and that he wasn't getting hurt in any way, shape, or form. Though I know Yellow used to be rather hostile in the past, I do believe that she's gotten better at controlling her temper. Still though, I had no idea what Yellow had planned for them, making their disappearance something that got me really anxious. So much so that I could not bring myself to do much of anything, aside from forcing my mind to focus on the deconstruction progress of my former colonies. But even that proved difficult because the thoughts of Steven potentially in danger kept circling back around to the forefront of my mind. Sure, I could've contacted Yellow to see if either of them were in need of help, but Yellow can certainly handle herself and if she needed help, she would've been the one to call and not me. Besides, I already attempted to get Steven earlier than originally planned this morning, but after that was unsuccessful, calling her would more than likely seem like I'm still wanting her to reconsider, which would really be pushing my luck.

Long story short, the day felt longer than any other day I had gone through before, something not commonly heard from Diamonds like me. By the time White and I noticed that Steven and Yellow had vanished, both of us were reaching a definite conclusion in our conversation. I felt sad that I at least couldn't wish Steven a good day and hope that he would have fun. But soon after this realization dawned on us both, White thought that we might as well get right to what we had discussed instead of just putting it off. And so, we went to Pink's old chambers, now Steven's new chambers, and tapped on the door. The Pink Pearl opened the door and her expression quickly changed from joyful to mildly frightened when she saw White. Spinel then came up behind her, asking who was at the door, and quickly grew scared as well. I could already tell that things were going downhill, but I remained somewhat hopeful that it wouldn't end up too terribly. The Pearl kept her composure as best she could and asked what White and I wanted. White told her that she and I wanted to give them company since Steven was going to be away with Yellow for the day. I could briefly see sadness flash across their faces when hearing that Steven was with Yellow instead of them. But, as soon as White was done speaking, Spinel spoke up and said that they both appreciate the offer but that they'd like it if they just had time to themselves. White nodded silently and Spinel closed the door.

It went exactly how I thought it would, their reactions just like what I surmised and previously told White about. After that, White just shook it off and said that she would be off, leaving me to head back to my chambers by myself. Once I arrived, I went and sat down in front of my mirror, taking out my comb and brushing my hair while letting my mind wander. Though it didn't start right away, a feeling of emptiness was getting more and more noticeable inside me. It began during White's day with Steven and only got worse when this current day started. And contrary to past occurrences, I actually know why I'm feeling this way. I've admitted to myself that Steven means a lot to me and that I couldn't stand if he disappeared and died just like Pink, but even though I know he's in good hands and is not by any means far away, I can't help but miss his presence. His unique ability to see the good in everyone and anyone, while also being as kind to them as possible, is what I deeply cherish about him. It's also why I love being near him, because he makes me feel special. Makes me feel as if I'm more than just Blue Diamond.

I ended up stirring on these dwelling thoughts for a lot longer than I probably should have, my next course of action being to bring up my holo-screen and view how my colonies were coming along. As expected, work was consistent, progress was optimal, and the results were satisfactory. I felt so pleased by them that I just looked at them over and over, though I also did it because I really had nothing else to occupy my desire to stay busy. I did decide to take a break, though, upon seeing the time and noticing how much of it has already passed. I got up from my bed and left my chambers, going for a walk around the corridors of the Palace. Though my mood hadn't really improved at all, the walk was nice after being cooped up for an extended period.