"Heyyyyyyy, C- Carter, you know, you're a great friend, and i'm sorry. Sorry that i suck. I suck a lot. I suck at being friends, but you are mine? H-how? You know-..... i'm sorry, i'm so sorry, forgive me? sffft wilf nefter. i did not even say bye? i just left? i'm sorry. Anna Nicole please forgive me? She won't... I-i don't deserve her. I *sneezing* ahhh, bless me. Wait, why was I talking about? Who am I calling? O-Okay, well i'm gonna go bowling. Bowling is fun. Remember when we used-... neftermind. Oh, shit... fuck. Hey you need to leave before we make you! O-oh i'm leaving, calm down. ..... Fucking stupid ass-..." it disconnects.
I replay it and study it a second time. Was it just me... or did that not make any sense?
"Heyyyyyyy, C- Carter, you know, you're a great friend, and i'm sorry. Sorry that i suck. I suck a lot. I suck at being friends, but you are mine?" Okay this part is easy to understand before he goes completely off topic.
"H-how? You know-..... i'm sorry, i'm so sorry, forgive me? sffft wilf nefter. i did not even say bye? i just left? i'm sorry. Anna Nicole please forgive me?" Anna Nicole. His ex girlfriend who he- who he... yeah. My fingernails dig into my arm as I slide down the wall and push play again.
"She won't... I-i don't deserve her. I *sneezing* ahhh, bless me. Wait, why was I talking about? Who am I calling? O-Okay, well i'm gonna go bowling. Bowling is fun. Remember when we used-... neftermind. Oh, shit... fuck" Confused I push pause. Bowling? What does bowling have to do with anything? I pull at my hair in frustration trying my hardest to make sense of this.
"Hey you need to leave before we make you!" and that sounds like someone was yelling at him. But where was he? He clearly doesn't sound like he's in the right state of mine. Did he drink? God, I hope not, but it's clear that he was.
"O-oh i'm leaving, calm down. ..... Fucking stupid ass-..." I wonder what happened after that. I haven't heard of him all day or yesterday and the day before. I mean I haven't tried to contact him, but Carter hasn't either.
What if something happened?
Stella, calm down, nothing happened to him
I take in a deep breath to try and clear my thoughts. Everything will be fine.
Why am I worrying so much?
My mind goes back to when he blurted our that he loves me. No, that he is in love with me.
I feel butterflies in my stomach as I think back. I know that I like him. I want to be with him because I love him.
Wait.
What?
Uhm... replay?
I know that I like him. I want to be with him because I love him.
I love him?
Yes.
Why else do you think you get so sad when he's mad at you? Why else do you thrive for answers from him, and when he gives you horrible answers you still want to be with him? Why else do you think that you could still be with him? Because you love him. You do.
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A Star-Shaped Rose
أدب المراهقينStella Rose is a normal 17 year old girl. There's not much about her that isn't normal. She doesn't have a crazy popular girl coming at her. She doesn't have much of a cliche high school movie life. She's just Stella. Stella Rose. But maybe with a l...