The Dangers of Escape

CHAPTER 6

Jonathan-
I am happy. I can honestly say I am happy. I took my first med tonight and I haven't had any bad side affects yet.
Right now Evan is holding me tight. I feel safe. It's hard to believe that earlier today I tried to take my own life. An image of the creature I saw in the bathroom flashes through my mind. It occurs to me that it's the same thing as in my nightmares. The only difference is, the thing in my dream was my dad. The thing in the bathroom looked like me.

"Del you okay? You're shivering." Evan whispers to me. I didn't even realize I was moving.
"I was just thinking about that thing I saw in the bathroom. It scared the hell out of me."
I hear Evan sigh next to my ear.
"Are you sure that was real?" I think for a moment. I think about how it was there one second and gone the next.
"Honestly I'm not sure. It was the same thing I see in my nightmares. You think I'm insane don't you?"
"Well I mean you are delirious. But insane? I wouldn't go that far." It relieves me that he doesn't think I'm completely bonkers.
"Cartoonz and Ohm were getting pretty hot and heavy earlier. You think they're fucking right now?" Evan makes a sour face.
"They better clean those damn sheets if they are. I ain't touching them." I crack up laughing.
We lay in comfortable silence for a bit.
"How do you feel about sex?" I ask him.
"I love it." He answers. I giggle.
"I meant with me dumbass." He lifts an eyebrow at me.
"When the time comes, you'll have to talk me through it since you're my first boyfriend. Otherwise I know for a fact I'll love it."
"How do you know you'll love it?"
"Because I love you Jonathan." He yawns loudly. "Go night night now." I pull his arm tighter around me and listen to his even breaths. They slowly lull me to a deep sleep.

When I wake up the next morning, Evan is already awake.
"Good morning. How'd you sleep?" I'm shocked into silence as I realize I didn't have a nightmare last night.
"I slept great for once. Not one nightmare." Evan grins triumphantly.
"Perfect! You wanna help me make breakfast? Tyler is flying out today. This might be our only real chance at alone time." I nod and we both get out of bed.
Down in the kitchen, we start with coffee. Then once we both have a steaming cup, I work on the bacon and Evan works on the pancakes. We joke around a lot while cooking and setting the table. I grab a bottle of ibuprofen and set that on the table as well. I know the other two will definitely need it.

"Woah what's cooking down here?" Ohm says while sliding down the handrail on the stairs.
"We got puncakes, eggs, and bacon! Coffee is over there." I say pointing to the newly made pot.
"Fuck why is it so bright?" Luke says as he slowly finds his way to the kitchen. First thing he grabs is coffee and downs a couple of pills with it.
"So we gotta know. Did you two fuck last night?" Evan refers to both of them.
"Oh my god! Luke is blushing! They totally did!" Cartoon shoots me a glare and I laugh so hard coffee comes out my nose. It did not feel good.

"Anyway! Tyler is supposed to get here around 1pm. Anything you guys want to do?" Evan asks us.
"I think we should make a video. Like a try not to laugh thing. It's been awhile since Delirious posted anything and people are starting to wonder." Cartoonz says while giving me a sympathetic smile.
"Yeah all I've been doing is delaying the inevitable. At least I have most of the control in my hands back." Evan hugs me from behind.
"Should we tell the world about Vanilirious?"
"Don't you mean H2OVanoss?" I laugh at our ship. "Yeah I think the world should know."

After I finish my pancakes and rinse my plate off in the sink, we all go to the store to get some supplies. When we get home I'm the first one inside. I walk into the kitchen and put the grocery bags near the counter. I go out to grab some more bags.
"Jonathan? Did you open the cabinet?" Evan asks me from the kitchen.
"No why?"
"Uh... nothing. I must've forgot to close it earlier."
I comeback into the kitchen and help Evan unpack everything we got from Walmart. All of a sudden I feel cold and I shiver. Evan turns to me.
"You okay baby?" I nod.
"I'm just cold. Is there a draft in here?" Evan stops to check.
"I'm not feeling one. Maybe you're getting sick."
"Huh...maybe." I mumble as I finish putting things away. Not long after, the doorbell rings.
"I got it!" Evan yells as he runs to the door. I follow to see Tyler hugging Evan. I feel a twinge of jealousy. Out of the corner of my eye I see a shadow move. I turn toward it and don't see anything. God I'm losing my mind.