5SOS&1D - One-Shots - boyxboy [slow updates.]

you were made for me... // louis+calum // gentle smut

[ a/n; this was suggested by one of my perverted mind readers so this is dedicated to che321, not rough smut... maybe triggering! almost räpe & abuse. | bad!harry | calum!good | louis!abused | niall!friend who doesnt know anything of louis & harry. | this is a request, i dont really think of harry like that, i promise... itll be confusing at first, but youll get it soon.. i changed everything but its still the request you asked for... there is a song for this, i guess but maybe it wont match? idk. song: medicine by daughter. ]

✖️tomlinson✖️

i whimper as he yells horrible words at me, i clench my eyes close when he called me 'worthless' and 'a waste of space' tears were now pouring down my face.

i was curled up in the corner of my room, my stuffed bunny my 'real' father gave to me for christmas cuddled into my chest, he hasnt physically hurt me, he verbally and mentally abused me though.

i plugged my ears, faintly still hearing his yells. he pushed everything off my shelf, to my toy cars to my trophies.

poofy was soaking with my tears, i closed my eyes tightly and i heard the door slam close and the front door, i opened my eyes, sniffled, and wiped my eyes with the sleeves of my onesie.

i sniffled once again and went to the washroom connected to my room and washed my face, my eyes were still faintly pink but it'll go away when i wake up for school.

i got onto my bed without any help because im a big boy and i was slightly short, i tucked myself into my blanket and fluffed my pillow. i put poofy right next to me and i got the book that my mummy used to read to me until she passed, the ugly duckling.

i pretend shes reading it to me and i giggle when i thought of her tickling my nose with her index finger, i finished the book and turned off my lamp and rubbed my eyes, getting slowly tired.

i cuddled more into my empty bed, alone... my mummy used to sleep with me but only when i couldnt go to sleep, she would leave when im sleeping, or she would stay and fall asleep with me.

i pretended she was cuddled with me, i pretended she was here with me, i pretended she kissed my cheek goodnight, i pretended she fell alsleep with me, i pretended to fall asleep, but i couldnt...

the thoughts of my mummy made me cry... i fell asleep pretending my mummy left me to go sleep in her bed with her new husband.

or should i say my step daddy...

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i thought of the memory, i sniffled and wiped my nose and eyes with a tissue.

i was only 7, i told my friend's liam, zayn, and niall 2 years ago, i was 16 then, im now 18.

im in college and im an music major, i have a boyfriend named harry...

he promised he wouldnt hurt me but he did... whenever he hurt me, he would replace it with 'i love you's' and 'im sorry's' and i would forgive him just like that...

i get bruises from him whenever I embarrass him around his friends, when im being too clingy, when im annoying, when i dont do what he asks me to do.

after the beatings, he says 'sorry' or 'i love you' or he does an excuse, he helps me afterwards, he blemishes the purple bruises, and carries me to our bed and when i try to cuddle with him, he tells me to back off and i sleep on the far end of the bed, a big gap filling our bed.

i cry myself to sleep when that happens, he leaves right after i wake up...

the beatings never end, theyre just starting...