lost heart

Chapter 4

He saw me, I knew from the way he looked at me, hes never looked me in the eye this way, ever. I could feel the goosebumps forming as a shiver ran down my spine.

"I didn't like what I saw," he stood up, "at all."

I just about managed to gulp as I was completely lost for words, "It was-"

"I dont get how you can let someone like him use you like that Miso!" Seonghwa let out a frustrated sigh as he turned his back to me, and he then spoke quietly, "you should know how dangerous he is."

"I.. do. I know." Was all I could bring out as a mumble. Why was he being like this?

He turned and walked right up to me and then said,

"Stay away from him, please, he's danger."

And the stare he gave me was overfilled with emotions; I saw concern, worry, slight sadness and... adoration?

Adoration... like, love? Or like?

Ok I'm thinking way too much, I thought.

"Miso, did you hear me?" Seonghwa waved his hand in front of my face. I was in a daze, again, and now at the wrong time...

"Ah yes. Ill be careful I promise." I flashed a quick smile turning away to leave as fast as possible.

But I felt his hand grab my wrist and pull me back which caused me to stumble, and trip. Just as I screamed I felt his hands hold my arms, preventing me from falling and I felt so embarrased, I always embarrass myself like this in front of guys, what the hell.

"Sorry I pulled you like that but, I just wanted to say, if anything happens I'm here for you," he took my phone which was in his hand and put in his number, "tell me if anything is wrong, ever, and I'll be there for you."

Oh my God, he cares about me. He cares?
I couldnt believe what just happened as he walked away.

But thats when I realised Jungkook was his enemy, and Seonghwa must feel a bit protective over me because I am a childhood friend of sorts, and I was with his enemy.

But what could explain the adoration, and to some extent love I saw in his expression. My mind was, yet again, everywhere.

I took a seat at my desk and took a deep shaly breath as I realised I wasn't breathing properly and Eunsol came back. She signalled from the door for us to leave and I grabbed my bag and joined her. She was surprisingly quiet as we left school, I thought she would ask me what happened or something, she must've noticed him come into the class.

Well I wanted her to speak about random stuff so that I could keep my mind off the odd events of the past two days. But she said bye and went off on her own way home.

Just great.

Maybe she heard it all and wanted to give me a moment to process it, but I didn't want to think about it though.

The moment I got home. I changed and went straight into bed. I didn't properly get up again till the next morning for school.

The next day of school, first period was history, which I was dreading more than usual as I dragged myself to class. Seonghwa was already there, and he didn't look away from me till I sat on my desk.

This lesson felt different, and I felt a bit relieved. It didnt feel like he was looking at me the whole time and it calmed my nerves.

But suddenly I felt slightly panicked because of something Mr. Seo said.

"To revise the whole of this section of the textbook, each pair I read out from my list will have a designated subtopic to write up an essay with after of course making all the revision material. For the pairing columns 1 and 2 are paired up as rows and so are colouns 3 and 4."