lost heart

Chapter 5

[PREVIOUS CHAPTER] But then i saw someone i haven't seen in a long time...

Jung Jaehyun

Suddenly, my heart began to race as i turned on the spot. With one hand on my chest and my eyes shut tight, i took a deep breath. Its not good to run away Miso, face him, you're doing fine and you should show him that. 

With that thought, i turned on my heels and entered the shop.

Thud...

Thud...

Thud...

The sound of my heartbeat was all that i could hear. I couldn't help but feel uneasy, i wasn't ready to face him, even if its been 2 years. I slipped into an isle far away from where he was and grabbed some stuff mum told me to buy. On edge, i continued to shop, mostly looking at the floor praying he goes without noticing me when I bumped into something, no someone.

"Oh shit I'm so-"

I deadpanned when i saw who i bumped into. 

"Oh hi Mim- Miso." he stuttered as he almost called me by my nickname. My heart fell to my stomach. When he called me Mimo (beauty) it felt so different to anyone else calling me that, but in that moment, my heart felt so empty.

"Hi Jaehyun." i mumbled as i tried to brush past. He tried to stop me slightly but i slid past and continued walking while tears clouded my eyes.

"Miso wait-" he started but as he spoke i only walked faster and quickly paid for the stuff and left.

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The moment i got home i dropped onto my bed buried my head into my pillow and sobbed, sobbed until i gave myself a headache from crying silently.

but i was disturbed by my phone ringing

[INCOMING CALL] Seonghwa  

I took a deep breath before answering the call.

"Hello?"

"Hi Miso, its Seonghwa, you saved my number didn't you?"

"Ah hey, yeah i did save it." i replied shortly, but my voice broke at the end of the sentence, and i internally face-palmed, great Miso you dumb shit you blew your cover.

"Hey you alright?" he sounded worried.

"I'm good yeah" I laughed in slight panic, "i was just.. watching a sad film..." my voice trailed off as i tried to find an excuse.

"Oh, i see, i was going to ask if we could work on the revision work today... if you're busy we can do it tomorrow."

"No, im fine with doing it today!"

"Oh okay! So shall i come over to yours or do you wanna come to my house? or we can go to the library since its a bit gloomy outside"

"Uhh, you can come to mine if you want just give me about 20 minutes to clean up the house" i laughed

"Yeah sure. See you then!" 

"See you!" i exclaimed as ended the call and rolled out of bed. 

God i looked like a whole damn mess. My eyes were puffy and red, my cheeks were stained with mascara tears, and my nose was runny. I washed my face and reapplied some simple makeup by the time i heard the doorbell ring, early? I looked at the time and only 15 minutes had passed. ugh why didn't i say half an hour?

"Hello Seonghwa dear come in! you both have work to do right? Just give her a moment she's probably gathering her stuff from her room!" Mum answered the door and rambled on, she must have somewhere to go and i bet she's late for whatever it is, i thought while rolling my eyes.