The Darkness in her Eyes

9

I find Bree laying down on the floor, eyes glazed and puking on her dress.

"Bree, what are you doing? Your parents will murder me for letting this happen and murder you for doing it in the first place".

"Ha-ha, I'll be alright,". Bree mutters.

I grab Andrew. "Hey, we have to get Bree sobered up, if my uncle finds out, my dad will murder me, and you will probably never see me again. My dad will make me attend the rest of my high school years online".

"We probably need to talk about that more later, but I have an idea" Andrew says and goes straight over to Bree. He picks her up over his shoulder and motions me to follow him.

He lays her gently into the backseat and he tells me to get into the car.

"What about her boyfriend?".

"Pfft. Her boyfriend is already with two other girls in the bathroom, he will not miss us,'' Andrew looks at his watch. "We only have about two hours before I have to get you both back,", "I will take you to my house and see if my dad can get her sobered up. He won't ask questions".

It takes ten minutes to get to his house and his dad is outside waiting on us. His dad is a scrawny man with tiny ass shorts and a muscle shirt on.

"Let me take care of her and you two go hang out for a bit,". He says,

I feel super nervous about leaving Bree with this man I've never met and what we have both been through.

"It'll be okay, my dad's a paramedic".

Once we go up to his room, his brother is in the little entryway on the computer with some huge headphones on. Andrew motions me to his room and I panic. His room is bare aside with a few dragons' posters and futon, there is not much else. He motions me to another door in his room.

It seems to be a game room, with a computer and a pool table. We play a few rounds and he beats me each time.

Bree comes up to the game room, sullen but sober. She's quiet and I must ask her what's wrong.

"We should probably get her back home so she can rest". "I had a lot of fun tonight though".

As we get back to Bree's house, he lets go of my hand. He rests his hands on my shoulders and gives me a hug.

"What's your cell number?".

"I don't have one, but my online screen name is Chemy".

" I had a nice time, even if Bree had to ruin it.''

"I had a great time too", I get on my tiptoes and brush my lips across his cheek.

I wave bye to him as his car quietly drives away.

I slip Bree inside and help lay her in bed.

As soon as her head hits the pillow, she's out like a light. I thought tonight had gone very well. I couldn't sleep from the excitement. I hop onto Bree's computer and talk with Brandon. I notice I have a few messages from Craig.

"I miss you"

"Did you think about what I said".

"I just want to be with you again".

I scramble to think of a good reply and reply with "I'm still thinking about it. I'm not sure it will work out. I miss you too. I will tell you I went on a date with someone tonight".

Why did I tell him that? Great looks like he's online now. I move my screen to invisible. Brandon is talking about the new episode of Degrassi tonight and I tell him about my date.

Craig pings. "Annie, I know your online".

Craig is typing.

"Our love will never die".

I reply with "Our love burned into flames a year ago".

"I told you I'm sorry".

I go back to talking to Brandon and looking up people on Myspace. I write a poem:

When you look at me, what do you see

Do you see a girl, with no future?

The pails of tears I would've cried

the many times I've disappointed you

the mistakes I've made,

that has made you hate me

You've hated what I've become

I'm trying to please you

I've cried several nights

to see if you really loved me

I've looked up to

In many ways

But it's always the same

You yell

I scream

Let's turn the cycle around dad

look at me

really see me

I love you

though you don't care

I've always had

You're making me smaller dad

Bringing me down in so many ways

You say you love me

You say you hate me

which is it

I can't take it dad

You're hurting me inside

My heart is bleeding

You yell

I scream

All these emotions

Your putting me down

boosting me up

I love you dad

but you'll never see me

Will you?

Tears are rolling down my eyes as I see another message come across the screen. Andrew2008.

"Hey you still up?"

"Yeah, just listening to my drunk cousin snore her life away".

"HAHA. I had a great time with you tonight".

"I had a good time too".

"Maybe we should go on a date for real next time?"

I type and realizing this was all fantasy, my dad would never let me.

"Maybe".

"Great, have a good night Annie".

"You too, night".