God I hate this place. It's the last place that I wanna be. School. Ew. I shove my things in my locker and sigh. Why do I have to be here. Ever since I saw Adrain this weekend I haven't been myself. For instance, my side chick Hanna called me up. You already know what she wanted, and I totally declined!. Why? I felt almost...guilty? Why? I've been texting Adrain everyday since I left her house. I can't even look at her text without smiling. I hear my phone and when I look at it my whole heart skips a beat. :Hey lil mama, just wanna let you know that your so amazing and I hope you have a good day at school:)... I smiled super big and I started to text back but I bumped into someone, and my phone went flying through the air. Luckily he caught it. "Oh shit I'm sorry man." He said in a mono tone voice that annoyed me already. I nodded and grabbed my phone from him. I walk away and I feel his eyes on me. Disgusting. I roll my eyes down and walk into my second hour. History. Gross. I take a seat near the back and began to text but the teacher yells at me. Guess I'm not texting her back until next hour. I roll my eyes yet again and start listening to the teacher.
Finally second hour is over. I pull out my phone and began to text Adrain back. :Awe thank you:) and I hope you have a good day too: I hit send and put my phone in my pocket. When I look up I meet eyes with the person that I hate or hated. I haven't talked to her in months. She smiles at me and waves but I just nod back to her and start walking away. "Jessie wait!" I hear her and stop but don't look back at her. "Can we talk?" She asks. "I'm listening." I say back harshly. I hear her sigh and she gets a little closer to me. "I'm sorry. I really am. I just want you to talk to me jes, please..." her voice always had its effects on me. She knew that. She knew I was a sucker for her. But not anymore. Not like I used to be anyway. I can control myself now. "Why? So you can fuck me over again? So you can get me all wrapped around your finger, and then go and fuck some dude? So you can break my heart again!?" I say and turn around, getting into her face. She seemed to have shrank. "I-i-I'm sorry." She says in almost a whisper. Fuck that. "No, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I ever fucked with you. I'm sorry that I ever fell in love with you. Fuck you." I say through gritted teeth. I can feel my whole face heat up and tears in my eyes. I back away and walk to the bathroom. I pull out my phone and text Adrain: Can you come pick me up from school?: I click send and not even a minute later she text back. :yessir: I take a deep breath and hide my head in my knees. Why does she have to do this shit. Just seeing her, just hearing her voice, it fucks me up. Now the tears are coming out hard. My phone goes off and I don't even look at it. I get up and walk out the front school doors. I see her sexy ass car and hop inside. "What's wrong babygirl?" The nickname she gave me made me smile. But that didn't hide my tears. I wiped them away and took a deep breath. "You better hurry up and drive." With that she drove fastly away, scaring the living shit out of me. "So what's wrong?" She asked once more, but this time with more force in her voice. "Just a girl.." I say and she looks over at me. "Look at the road you dummy" I say worrily. "Who" she replies. I hate when people drive crazy. "My ex" I say with hesitation. "Madison..." I nod my head and look away from her. She pulls over in some random parking lot with no other cars. "Well just know, I will fuck someone up for you Jes, your my best friend." She said in a calm caring voice. I smiled at her and leaned over the seat to hug her. She hugged me back super tight. I nuzzle my face into her shoulder and took in her scent. She always smelt so good. Like natural but also brute. "When I hug you it feels like they could last forever and never get old." I hear her say. I smile even bigger at her words. "I feel the same way." I reply and nuzzle more. "Stop being all cute froggy." She says with a laugh. I pull away and smile at her. My eyes go straight to her lips. Why? Stop Jessie. I tell myself but I can't seem to move them. Finally I look up at her eyes and they were on my lips. She looks away and sighs. "What's wrong?" I ask. She looks at me up and down then looks back at my lips. "I wanna....do something stupid." Stupid? She wants to do something stupid? I wanna do something but it's not stupid. "What would that be?" I say being pushy. Jes, don't go to far. I tell myself. "I think you know..." was all she said. I do know. She wants to kiss me. And I want her to kiss me. "It's not stupid." Was all I said and she moved a little closer to me. "What if it is? What if it's...weird afterwards?" I wasn't expecting her to be that straight forward. "It won't be." I say in reply. She leans in a little more. I can't take it. I want to feel those big lips on mine. I grab her face and connect our lips. Mmmm. The kiss only lasted a few seconds but it was amazing. Her lips were so soft, and just her being so close to me made my skin hot. She sighed super loud. Was I bad at kissing? "No, your not bad at kissing that was amazing." She says. Am I that obvious? "Then what?" I ask. I just wanna know!. "Ever since we started hanging out again and talking and I've been feeling some type of way. Remember when I was 14 and I kept being all weird around you? Yeah, that's cause I used to have feelings for you. And ever since then I have. But when I left, I thought the feelings did too. But when I say you again I knew they didn't. The feelings are still there." She likes me. Like that. She has actual feelings for me. Feelings. I stayed quiet for a long time. "Say something. Please." Her voice was almost shaky. I looked up at her. She looked so worried. What can I say? I cupped her face and smiled softly. "I'm sorry." She said and pulled her face away from my hands. Did she think I was gonna reject her? "Hey, Adrain I love you with all of my heart. I know that there is something between us. I been knew that. And when you left. That broke me so much. You will always be special to me. And no matter what I will always love you. And I always have your back. You have feelings for me. I feel the same way Adrain." She looked back at me and sighed. I cupped her face again and used one hand to put her hair out of her face. I leaned in again and kissed her forehead. "Even if we wanted to be together we couldn't." Her words cut me. Why? I gave her a confused look and she sighs once more. "I'm 18, and your 16, and your father is extremely homophobic." I sigh and look away from her. "Your right." I say and let go of her face. "But hey, if I steal a kiss or two every now and then will that be a problem?" She says with a smile. "No I would love that." I kiss her and rest my four head on hers. "We can't tell anyone then?" I ask, making sure. She shook her head.
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Unbroken bonds
Non-FictionAfter Jessie's best friend moves away, her parents get divorced she is forced to move from her dads (not that she is complaining). One weekend she goes to visit her father and has some unexpected company.
