Unbroken bonds

6. Her

It's Saturday and I am bored with nothing to do. My mom is on a date with some old dude. God knows what she's up to. I haven't talked to Adrain at all. She hasn't texted me so I haven't texted her. Its been 5 days. It's been hard not to. My phone goes off and when I look at it I'm a bit disappointed. My friend Jonathan wants to go out. I agree to go out and now I'm stuck waiting for him. I take this time to get dressed. I throw on my black, Beatles crop top and some black leggings. I brush my hair out and lay on my bed, waiting. When I hear the loud music I know it's Jonathan. I run outside and hop into his little cramped car. Without any words we drive away from my house and about 45 minutes later we pull up to a enormous yellow house with very loud music blaring from it. I'm so excited, I love parties. It'll take my mind off everything. As soon as I walk through the door I'm met with hugs and hello's. I walk through the crowds and into the kitchen. The owner of the house, Olivia, one of my really good friends, throws parties all the time and I'm usually here for all of them. I open the fridge and poor myself a cup of cranberry juice and add in some vodka. When I walk out of the kitchen I walk around looking for any cute girls. Maybe even guys too. But instead I see a her. Adrain. And there is some red head bitch clinging to her side. The sight makes my blood boil. I see they are talking to Olivia so I walk over and wrap my arms around her, making sure my ass is sticking out and I kiss Olivia in the cheek. "Omg jes hi" Olivia says with a huge smile. I know Olivia has feelings for me. She has for a long time now. I just never confront her about it. "Hey mama" I say with a smirk then I throw my arm over her shoulder. When I turn around I'm met with those big, bright, green eyes and some foggy blue ones. The little read head definitely knew who I was by the way she was clinging tighter to Adrain. I look Adrain up and down then raise a sassy eyebrow. I can be a bitch if I wanna. Adrain suddenly looks very flustered. "Hi Jessie" the little read head stuck out a hand, and I took it firmly. "Hi." I say back and quickly let go of her hand as though she has aids. I grab Olivias hand and drag her along with me. I peek back at Adrain and her jaw is clenched.

"How have you been Jes" Olivia knocks me outta my zone with her words. I look up and smile at her. Olivia is very attractive with her very long pitch black hair and huge lips. She smiled back, showing her blue braces. "I've been okay, you?" I reply and give her all my attention. "I've been good, I've also missed you. It feels like it's been forever." Her answer make me a little irked. I smiled again. "Well maybe if you didn't drop out." I say and lightly punch her in the arm. She giggles that cute giggle and looks at me with those big grey eyes. "Olivia your gorgeous, just so you know" I blurt out mindlessly. She blushed hard at my words and tucks a stray hair behind her ear. I suddenly felt the erg to kiss her so I did and it was super good. The kiss escalated quickly and now she was on the counter with me between her legs. My kisses went down to her neck and chest. Then I'm ripped away from her by someone and drug into a bathroom. "What the fuck!" I say but am met with another pair of lips. I push her off and back away from her. "Adrain what the fuck." Her green eyes were looking at the ground. "Why were you kissing her." Was all she said. Her voice was calm and cold. "Why the fuck does it matter to you, go back to your little fire head." I say back harshly. With that she looks up at me and gets in my face. "Don't kiss her again, don't kiss anyone again. Just me. Got it." Her voice was firm and solid. I was extremely intimidated(and turned on) but I wasn't going to show it. I gulped and looked at her lips. "I can do what I want. We aren't  together remember?" She clenched her jaw again. She was mad. Very mad. Her harsh lips attack mine and I kiss back just as hard. It's like all of the anger I had is coming out in this kiss. She grabs my wrist and holds them down on the sink counter. Her kisses move to my throat and she starts to bite and suck. Was she marking me up? She bit harder and I let out a little wine, she didn't seem to care though. "Who is the red head Adrain?" I try to say but her lips shut me up. I pull away and hold her back. "Answer me." I try to sound as serious as I can. "My ex, well my girlfriend..." she says with hesitation. Her ex. "Then get the fuck off of me Adrain!" I'm pissed off now. She doesn't move. "How come you can have a girlfriend but I can't go and fuck someone Adrain?! How is that fair?!" I yell in her face. She flinches at my words but still doesn't move. I try and get off of the counter but she pushed me back. I push her harshly but she still won't move. "Adrain, explain why. Why can you have someone but I can't?" She finally looks me in my eyes. "Because you can't." She says firmly. That not an answer! Why is she doing this. "Do you want me Adrain? Cause if you do I will give myself to you. But you can't have both of us. You need to choose. You need to figure out what you want Adrain." I say and her eyes get glossy. Why was she crying? "Come on a drive with me please." Her voice was soft now and it was melting my heart. I cup her face and make her look at me once more. I kiss her and nod. She interlocks our fingers and pulls me through the party. Her little red head was yelling for her but she pushed past her. We reach the car and she opens the door for me. I hesitantly get in and she drives away fastly. We pull up to the same big abandoned building that I picked her up from. She sighs and looks at me. "I'm so fucking scared of you. I've been so fucking hurt. I'm not trying to make you take pity or anything but I'm fucking scared Jessie." Her words sunk in. She was scared I was gonna hurt her. I could never. "I've been in love before Jessie and I dont wanna do it again but I know it's gonna happen. If I keep staying around you that's what's gonna happen. I don't wanna be in love you someone again. I don't wanna be hurt like I was before." She spoke again.

"Adrain, I wouldn't hurt you. I won't hurt you. I can't stand that you haven't talked to me. And when I finally do talk to you, your with some little red head bitch." I reply with a sigh. She looks away and I see a single tear drop.
"I know, and I'm sorry, I just got back with her cause she texted me she was sorry, and I was trying to stay away from you. I needed a better reason to stay away. I'm so scared to fall again Jessie." She starts crying with those last words. I grab her face and wipe her tears away. "Adrain I won't hurt you. I promise. I triple decker double promise." I say and hold up my pinky. She smiles  a sad smile and connects our pinky's.