Chapter 2: Do You
"And then?" Rum was non stop laughing while his finger was playing small circles on my back.
"Pinagalitan ako ng nanay ko no'n. I brought cards and even a piece of clothing for a smooth gambling at Lola Nena's house back then. Sabi kasi ng Tita ko, patay na si Lola Nena..." I chuckled while I was on his chest.
Kitang kita ang pagkaaliw sa mukha ni Rum sa kwento ko. His red lips are like cupid's bow but it's extra happy now. He's also glowing...
"Tumakbo ako papasok kina Lola Nena. Nadapa pa nga ako noon. Pagtayo ko, nakita ko si Lola Nena na nakatayo tsaka tawang tawa..."
"You got scared?" He chuckled.
Umiling ako. "No. I asked her... 'Buhay ka pa?' And she got mad the moment she realized that I was really serious."
He bit his lower to stop from laughing but he failed miserably. Humagalpak siya ng tawa sabay ng pagpisil pisil niya sa aking likod.
"And you got spanked because?"
Ngumuso ako. "She really died."
I looked away. Blood came rushing up to my head like a wildfire rapidly spreading into the woods. I was very young and naive. Pero kahit ganoon. I was living in guilt. My parents tried so hard to convince me that it wasn't my mistake. And Lola Nena, our neighbor, loves me so much.
"She died because you asked her?"
"No. The other day... after I asked her. She died..."
"And you felt guilty?"
Tumango ako.
His finger stopped from playing. Umayos siya ng upo at sumandal sa headboard. Our bodies were only covered with a white comforter making his upper chest very exposed to me. It was very firm and well chiseled.
"How old was she when she died?"
"Ninety six," I answered.
Nakadapa ako at nakaharap sa kanya. He's huge and tall so it's already expected na hanggang dibdib niya lang ako. I couldn't do anything so I played circles on his chest too. He groaned at my sudden move.
"She probably died because she was sick."
Tumango tango ako. "Still. I was young and felt guilty. We had to move to a new hometown because of that..."
"And you have to let go of that guilt, Mage. You still feel guilty." He leaned to give me a kiss on my forehead. "You will never have the better days if you keep on holding onto the worse ones." He smiled.
I can't help but smile again. Tinukod ko sa aking palad ang aking baba at tinagilid ang ulo para titigan siya. It's his simple words that really matter to me. It's the substance that makes me feel light. I was totally recovered from Lola Nena's death years ago but I never knew Rum will even save me from that darker side.
Days like these is a motivation to wake up everyday. Waking up next to him is another hope in life to breathe. Eto lang ang pangarap ko sa buhay. Problems are inevitable. The solution to it is to surround ourselves with people who can help you get through it.
But as for me... I only have one person but he's more than enough- like he could fill every spaces that I am longing for people to have. And I couldn't thank him enough for that.
"I love you, I love you..." paulit ulit kong sambit habang hinahalikan siya. He's gladly answering my kiss with more deep ones. Inangat ko ang sarili at umupo sa puson niya para mas lalo siyang mahalikan.
I will kiss away every pain I caused him. I will kiss all his worries away. And I will kiss him like he will forget that this is our reality. Ako lang ang iisipin niya sa gabing ito.
My lips lowered on his neck. I kissed it gently to avoid kiss marks... but maybe on his chest wouldn't be bad?
"You want a hickey?"
"Oh fuck, Magenta, just do it!" His fingers went through my hair and pushed my head down to kiss him.
I chuckled. "You're growing..." I said when I felt his erection up to my lower abdomen. "I wonder if you're wet?"
Umigting ang panga niya at tila napigtas agad ang pasensya at kinulong ako sa kanyang bisig. I let out a girly chuckle when he quickly rolled over putting himself on top of me. And my, he's not wasting anymore time and dived on my breast while cupping the other one.
I bit my lower lip as I felt the uncontrollable rush of my release. I want him in there now. I could feel my body trembling with excitement that I couldn't help but shut my eyes and feel the every touch of his tongue.
"Rum, please... e-eat me..."
Malutong na mura ang narinig ko mula sa kanya ngunit hindi niya naman sinunod. Like the usual, it's always delayed on purpose. He frustrates me all the damn time. Palagi naman. But I am always willing to submit to him, too. Kahit naman mula pa noon!
He went up to my lips and kissed me. Ngunit hindi nag tagal iyon. He pulled away the comforter like it was the most annoying shit he has ever seen. Agad iyong nahulog sa sahig kasabay ang pagbaba niya mula sa kama. His eyes were stiff and pissed for whatever reasons.
"What?" I asked. He's not standing in front of me.
He gave my body a good fucking scan before he smirked and cuffed my ankles with his fingers and harshly pulled me closer to him.
"I wonder if you're..." He savagely mocked before going down to me.
Napamura ako nang maramdaman ang mainit niyang halik doon. Hindi ko na mapigilan ang pag sabunot sa buhok niya habang sinasabayan ng paggalaw ang bawat halik niya. It's hot and wet that I could feel my system breaking down. My mental state is ripping!
"More!" I groaned like his usual impatient baby.
My thighs are getting red from his grip. Masyado akong maggalaw at kailangan niyang mas mapirmi ako. Pero hindi namin kaya ang isa't isa kaya bahala na kung magkapasa pasa man ako sa hawak na iyan. I just want more of it!
My legs are widely open just in front of him and he's holding both of my ankles to spread my legs.
"I'll do you first-" I failed. He hates it when I talk too much!
I moaned out of nowhere because of his sudden entrance. Agad siyang tumingala habang igting na igting ang mga panga.
Napamura ako sa nakikita ko ngayon. With Rum being naked before me, exposing his absolutely well formed abs and v-line. Partida ay nakapikit pa siya habang labas pasok sa akin. He seems very torn between rushing and not finishing it.
"Fuck!" Mura ko nang hindi ko na nakaya ang pagsabay ng init at kiliti na dumadaloy mula sa aking paa papunta sa buong katawan. I couldn't help but reach for the bed sheets and grab whatever's left for a support.
Damn it! Pakiramdam ko'y pagkatapos nito, wala na akong kaluluwa. Lahat ng kung anong meron ako ngayon, handa nang malagas sa bawat unos na ginagawa ni Rum sa akin.
He groaned when he couldn't help it anymore. Kagat labi ko siyang pinanuod na dinantay ang dalawa kong paa sa balikat para mahawakan ang aking baywang. His chest are starting to blush, too.
And when he held my waist, it's a drill. He went faster... and faster... without breaking his gaze from me. The sound from his thighs clicking to my buttocks is the only thing we can hear.
"Mage..." he released.
Napapikit ako... I can't find the exact words to describe my finished activity. Ang alam ko, para akong inangat nang inangat hanggang sa mapapikit ako. The last thing I saw was Rum getting a piece of towel to wipe away the liquid on my stomach bago ako nilagay sa ilalim ng kumot.
"I love you..." I mumbled.
Tuluyan na akong nakatulog nang hinalikan niya ako sa noo at may kung ano anong binulong.
