Can't Trust, Can't Love

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August pov
I walked In the streets I literally have nothing at all because of my ex I got out of prison yesterday my bank account is gone everything is gone I have nothing-gco

I bumped into somebody making her fall I helped her up

August-I'm so sorry I didn't see you I was all in my head. I said she stood up straight smiling

???-It's fine that's happens to me also. She smiled I nodded I was finna walk off into

???-Hey your August. She said I nodded shrugging

August-Yeah but not to be rude I gotta get to the shelter before it closes. I said she nodded I walked off I heard her call my name but I ignored it I have to get to the shelter and she isn't finna make me late

🥘 The Shelter 🏠
I couldn't sleep at this place all I could think about is how my friends turned their backs on me...niggas do anything to shut embarrassment out their life's even if you have to leave them to rott in prison.

Shit if my life wasn't going to change now I kind as well go back to prison atleast I had friends yeah I would have to work and you get mistreated but I couldn't complain it wasn't all that bad for me I sighed looking at the ceiling it smells funky I bet my roomate farted cause that's what it sound like is rotten eggs

I tried to sleep but all I did was open them back up im starting to think I'm just scared to sleep I wasn't even scared to sleep in prison but I'm scared to sleep here...I meant we got security guards in prison but here we got nothing no security nothing, everytime I saw Chris get nominations I would be like that should be mine Chris was my bestfriend can't believe he out of all people never called never helped me this nigga makes enough money to bail me out or atleast give me a damn lawyer

Dumb Ass over here singing "I gotta good lawyer" since you got a good lawyer you could of letme use him fucking bitch ass nigga I hate him with passion I hate all of my friends I hate my family I hate this world I hate that bitch who lied on me I hate love I hate feelings I hate my life I hate trust

With that I fell asleep repeating the same things in my head
Next day
I was eating my food slowly this food is worse than prison food and I thought it would be the same...I saw that same girl talking to the pastor I rolled my eyes what is she doing here following me I got up putting my tray up into I heard the pastor call my name I sucked my tooth I walked over there smiling

Pastor-August this is Asmita she's been working with us for two almost three years I want you to go talk to her maybe she could help you

August-no disrespect pastor but Help me with what exactly

Pastor-Well not to come off rude but like to get a job

I nodded slowly

Couple hours later
I was sitting in Asmita island table tapping my finger on the counter slowly I heard the door open

???-Baby I'm home

Oh yeah she did say she was taken

Asmita-I'm in the kitchen. She yelled i saw the dude appear which turned out to be Chris I smacked my lips so hard

Chris-A-August? He said I got up

August-Asmita thank you for talking with me or whatever you do not need to help me at all, or talk to me ever again. I said walking off hearing both of them calling my name I walked out ugh now where the fuck am I I looked around I don't even know which way to go

Chris-You can hate me but you know you need a ride. He said I looked at him I smacked my lips and walked towards him he unlocked the car I got in he started the car

Few minutes later
Chris-Why you acting like that you acting like a whole female. He laughed I raised an eyebrow

August-Nah, I'm just not talking to you what do I need to talk to you for. I chuckled to myself

Chris-I mean we are bestfriends-gco

August-We were bestfriends I don't know who you are anymore. I shrugged

Chris-Oh I see your mad cause I didn't bail you out or something, what the fuck I look like bailing out a rapist. He said bluntly I looked at him quickly As I was finna punch the fuck out of him

August-Bitch I didn't rape her it's crazy how you call me your bestfriend, you knew me for so long you didn't even take a second to think well I knew him for a while he wouldn't do that....your fucking dumb tf I look like raping her she wasn't even all that cute I was helping her with her stupid abusive boyfriend and all the sudden the next day police officers banging on my door. I shook my head

August-I don't hate you because you ain't bail me out I hate you because you didn't listen to me or call me asking me what happened instead you excused me like everybody else did over false things this is exactly why people are in jail over false things is because people like you who we thought was are friend...we were suppose to be bestfriends but I can't even trust you no more. I laughed shaking my head

August-And the crazy part is if this happened to Yo dumbass I would of helped you out but it's always good to see the true colors of your friends. I looked at him he had nothing to say

August-Tell your little girlfriend don't talk to me I don't want help from you or her..next you'll criticize me as stealing. I laughed getting out the car slamming the door I walked inside the shelter the pastor smiled

Pastor-So any progress? He asked I shook my head

August-She Uh I don't like her. I said the pastor just looked at me