I love ya man(cash)

start from beginning How'd Cameron meet Nash?

Camerons POV

Oh my god what the hell did I do? Nash kissed me, I told him I hated him. I could never hate Nash even if I tried. And I came up to em to ask if I could talk to him. And I made out with him. It would be a lie if I said I had no feelings towards Nash whatsoever. Because I do have a lot of big feelings that I don't want.

I can't be gay, I can't like Nash, no I won't like Nash. Why would I though?. Why would I be telling myself no but my conscious does?. It made no freaking sense.

But I had told Nash I had liked him, what the heck will I do?. I choose not to be gay and it's final. But what will I say to Nash without hurting him?, I don't have the guts to hurt him like I do all the rest. As weird as that sounds, I do care for him, and his feelings

I already saw how he reacted when I told him I hated him. I can't make that mistake again. Not this time. He's so fragile and delicate. He's a nicknack on a shelf whenever, it hits the ground he will break just like it will.

What will I do?, I wanna be Nash's friend but sometimes I wanna be more than just friends but I can't.  I'm not gay and will never be. It's just a phase and I should get over it in a few weeks. Everyone goes throughout them phases things right?

This must just be a phase, a phase that I'm gay, because I can't I like Rebecca you like Nash better tho' my inner voice speaks. See what I mean I think one thing, it fights with it and it gets me angry.

Oh god please help me, give me a sign or something.  I don't know my life story, hell, I don't even know who I am anymore. Nash got into me with everything he has done like the first day I met him.

FLASHBACK

I was walking down the hallway minding my own business, this was way before I turned into the me I am now. Like always I would get tripped and called a faggot or a quier.

I suddenly, bumped into him, the guy that had gotten my eyes from the beginning, Ben, the boy I've liked since we've been friends.  But that changed when he wanted to be popular. It hurt when he left me and joined the group.

He pushed me down and called me a fag, then walked away. I was on the floor. Than an angel appeared, he was beautiful I don't think I've seen him around school. He has me his hand and pulled me up

"I'm Nash." He said then smiled

"I'm Cameron um may I ask why your talking to me no one talks to me.?" I said

"I'm not other people, Cameron, and I thought we could be friends?" He said

"Yeah." I said and fixed my glasses. Yes I wore glasses back then I could see him better. He was cute with his hair sticking up to a side. His eyes where amazing-

End of flashback

My flashback had gotten interrupted by my phone buzzing, I was angry that I didn't get to finish the best flash back ever, it was the day I realized I had somewhat feelings for him. Now, I'm just confused about it.

I look at the caller and it was Nash crap what do I say?

"Hey Nashy." I said crap Cameron why'd you say his nickname?

"Hey Cam uh I were wondering if you'll go on a date with me next weekend?" He asked What the heck do I say? "Uh you don't have to if you uh don't want to." I can mentally see him blushing through the phone.

"Ook." I stuttered

"What really?" He asked enthusiastic

"Yeah it should be fun." I said with a sly smile

"Thanks Cameron I'll see you at school." He said and hanged up. What did I do? I don't even know if I wanna go. I hope it turns out good

Resume flashback

His eyes where amazing hazel blue. I couldn't help but stare into then they where just amazing. He must think I'm crushen on him or somethin. Which I am totally doin. Instead of Ben I gotta knew crush up in here.

"You want me to walk you to your class?" Nash asked and I smiled

"Thanks Nash." I said and he took my hand I felt a b.uring sensation on my hand. It didn't hurt it felt good actually. It was like a little shock that had ran through my whole body. Nash had made my skin tingle.  He was the first person, to talk to me since people found out, some how, that I was bi.

Because I know for a fact that I hadn't told anyone.  So, once I had lost all my friends except for Carter, which was with Nash's friend, Matt, I guess, while, I was getting bullied from the people around me.

I wish the people didn't know I wouldn't be in this situation.

End of flashback

I'm glade Nash was there when I had that fall or I would've never have met him. And I wouldn't be in this situation I am in now. And I wouldn't have known who I am, which I still don't, but I'll figure it out later when I have that quality.

I wanna see how this week goes and see if it goes ok if it does I'll be happy. Nash will be willing to tell the people about the relationship but I don't know if we should. It wouldn't be the same expecially if my father founded it out. He would wanna kill Nash. And trust me, he will try. Expecially,  when they don't know nothin about me.

They end up asking me all these nosey ass questions about my social life I don't know what I would do. It would get really, annoying.

A/N

Next chapter is Gilinskys pov if you wanna know what the JACKS are up to with there crazy lives. Haha. I haven't had them in the story a lot and I'm sorry nor Taylor but I promise you there story will come later on. I haven't forgotten about them.

JACKxJACK action in Gilinsky POV

>>>>>>>>> Cameron thinking of Nash