I love ya man(cash)

Telling Matt everything

Nash's POV

I sat in the bathroom a little while thinking of me being the bad guy. Making Cam cheat on Rebecca,  I hate myself for it but I don't regret it tho. Cam should tell Rebecca like seriously.  The bell for lunch ringed through the school. I'm probably gonna get in trouble, I skipped the whole school day, and I never do that.

I get up off the toilet and walk out with red stained eyes from crying. Cam has gone to far this time saying we can't be an us it just hurt too much. I walk out the bathroom to catch up with the boys at least Cam isn't with them. I can't help it, I don't wanna see his face nor Rebeccas it would hurt way to much.

I catch up with Carter and Matt I decided to jump on his back. So I did I hope Carter don't get mad for doing a bro thing you know.

"Hey what was that for?" He said

"Sorry needed cheering up." I said

"What for was it Cameron?" He asked angrily

"Well, yes it is and I wouldn't wanna talk about it in front of Carter." I whispered

"Ok uh Carter babe can you give me and Nash a few minutes please?" He asked

"Yeah babe I'll be waiting." Carter said and kissed Matt. It was so fucking adorable. There whole relationship was adorable.

"What happened this time you want me to pound his face in?" Matt said and I took his hands apart from smashing them together

"No you don't gotta do a thing just listen." I said and Matt nodded

"Alright I'm listening." He said

"Ok so during Mcd when Cam asked for us to chat alone when you guys left he took me to the bathroom and we kissed it felt magical we pecked each other a little bit and he intertwined our fingers together and told me he liked me, of course I accepted it and told him the same thing, he had told me before coming to meet you and the boys in the car he told me not to tell anyone, I kinda knew he wouldn't wanna come out since he's ashamed to do it. Then the next day I had done the stupid I called him up and asked him out, I regretted it right away, then today when we met you guys up and I told him off, I think it turned him on so he took me to a room, after he kissed me I stopped him to ask why he was being mean to yall and I told him and example about me and him and everyone not accepting it, which everyone will, and he told me that we would never be and us at all and it got me really sad so I found Justin, the guy who told me to come out to him, he told me to wait it out and he will figure it out, but honestly I want him to realize it now,  then his boyfriend Korbin thought I was out to steal him, but I was only asking for advice because he went threw the same thing I had, he got super jealous and told me that I can't spend time with him Justin got protective for me, the Korbin apologized to me, and I cried in the bathroom for a while, basically the whole day, and Matt I had lost it, I made Cam cheat on his girlfriend." I said about to cry. At least I had gotten it all out of my system ya know

I'm happy I got that all out of me.

"Just like you said he's a dick like always Nash you really need to have a boyfriend that likes you and won't cause heartbreak in your life, you gotta get situated, Cam will never understand what your going through because he's to stupid." He said

"I just want the old Cam back that's the boy I had fell in love with before all this shit, now he's an asshole that can't always get what he wants, he needs to be old Cam, the wild, the funny, and the kind Cam." I cried

"I know u think all of us want that Nash we all miss old Cam ever Carter does he doesn't understand what he has in life, he's confused and scared of the things that can happen if people find out he's gay." He said

"I know that Matt but what if he's not gay what if his bi, or even straight, he could be using me to see if he's gay, I don't know but I'm tired of crying all the god damn time (I'm so sorry god I love you forgive me)." I cried

"Oh Nashy it's gonna be ok you'll find another person that loves you for what you are not for sex for love that person will come around just give it time." Matt explained

I wiped my tears " Thanks Matt your the best." I said and hugged him.

"I know we'll I gotta go to Carter he's probably wondering where we are now." Matt said releasing me I also released him and we walked to the lunchroom. We seen all boys including Cameron.  I was about to cry but you know what I'm stronger than this I can do this without getting hurt, I'm stronger than him. I walk over to the regular table the only spot was next to Cam. This. sucks. 100%.

I can't wait to lay in my bed and just relax probably take a shower and eat to cos or something probably invite Matt and Carter over maybe Shawn and Taylor or Jack and Jack haven't talk to them in like ages. Kidding I just talked to Gilinsky a day ago. But I just wanna take a nap, shower, and maybe get drunk. Maybe I should have a small get together party with the boys and have a fun time. Because I need to relax and release all this stress that has been commin through me.

I think Cam saw right through me. He smiled lightly at me and I just turned away. I can't see his smiled. Not now not ever because I just can't.  Why is he doing this to me?

So when's your first date?" I asked looking at Matt and Carter

"This Friday I'm taking him to the-." Carter whispered to me and I smiled

"That's sweet Carter." I said and he smiled

"Is know we'll I'm doing this for Matt because I love him." Carter said and I smiled Matt blushed it was adorable to see him blushing. Like I said before Great Couple right there.  They would win the great couples award, since they are so cute together. They make me wonder if mine and Cams relationship will turn out like there's, but I don't know like he said there is no us and there will never be an us. But what Matt and Justin said to me got to me. Give him time he will come around they have both said to me. So I wonder if I could give him some time to think about it.

A/N

Awe this is an adorable chapter.

>>>>>>>>> Matt and Carter <<<<<<<<

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