Shattered Hearts

Anniversary

It's our anniversary I can't wait to suprise him. I wonder what suprise gift will he give me? What should I buy for him? Where can I prepare the suprise date for him?

Right now I already found a place to suprise him. I rented a garden just for our anniversary, just to suprise him. I hope this will be the best anniversary we will have.

Busy preparing this suprise date, I didn't want someone to help me because I want it to be all my efforts. I also bought the shoes he loves, that's how much I love him.

I also cook all of this food because I know how much he loves my cooking skills. After all of this, the next thing I should do is go shower and fix myself. I need to be pretty and gorgeous for him.

I waited for him to come, I also called him many times but still no answer. I'm getting afraid that he might not come. Thinking so hard if there's a reason why he's taking so long.

I've sent him so many texts but he still hasn't replied. If there is a problem between us I'm willing to risk something for us and for our relationship.

After so many hours he finally came, but the way he looks like... I can't explain it really feels like it's not him. He's mad and a little bit upset. He looks disappointed on something.

I started talking to avoid this silence.

"Vincent, you should've called me." I started talking but he made me shocked from his answer. "I'm sorry but I want to break up with you."

I waited for hours and this is how everything will go? He'll just end relationship just like this?

He was about to turn his back and walk away when I stopped him. "Wait..."

He looked back at me.

"Can I atleast know the reason why?"

"I'm just done with this relationship. That's all." he simply said.

It wasn't the reason I was expecting. Maybe I could've accepted it more if he told me something else other than that. I don't know what was his problem with our relationship...

I'm glad that my tears didn't fall, but the worst part is that all the efforts that I have done was just a waste. For him, All the memories we had is like nothing and not important but, for me it is. I love him my whole life and I'm ready to take risk to sacrifice just for him.

But, he just really leaves me here, staring blankly at nothing. So many question that comes in my mind. Did I do something wrong? Did I do something that he didn't like? Doesn't he love me anymore? Don't I deserve someone to love me? Why can't they love me back?

Why do I always end up the one being hurt?

Maybe I shouldn't expect much more from them. Boys will always be boys, it's already hard to find someone who can really love you. Who you can really trust, I'll just wait for the right time. But what should I do with all of this? All of my efforts was just a waste. What a waste of time.