Hey Future Boyfriend

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Saturday, November 9

9:09 am

Lyra:
Beshi. Asan ka na?

Lyra:
I keep on receiving weird looks from people.

Lyra:
#Awkward

9:15 am

Beshiwap:
Malapit na ako. Where ka?

Lyra:
Dito sa quadrangle. Bilisin mo. #Amaloner

Lyra:
Tapos iba pa sila tumingin sa akin. Meron pa akong nakita nag-uusap tapos nakatingin sa'kin. Parang ewan.

Beshiwap:
Weird. I'll be there in a minute.

9:23 am

Beshiwap:
Nasan ka? Wala ka naman dito sa quadrangle.

9:30 am

Beshiwap:
Lyra Cassandra!

10:01 am

Lyra:
Beshi.

Lyra:
I saw Steven. Sinundan ko siya hanggang dito sa building ng College of Law. May kasama siyang babae. They're holding hands.

Lyra:
They're very touchy with each other. Nung nasa dulo na ng hallway, tatawagin ko na sana siya pero yung babae bigla siyang hinila at hinalikan.

Lyra:
I stood there frozen as I watch them. Di ko na napigilan napaiyak na ako beshi. I was fighting so hard not to sob but when they parted, a sob escaped from me. Napatingin silang dalawa sa akin.

Beshiwap:
What did that fucking asshole said?

Lyra:
He was shocked. But he didnt move. The girl exactly looked like his typical ideal girl. Matured looking. Curves in all the right places.

Lyra:
Wala naman akong laban sa ideal niya diba?

Lyra:
Ang tagal kong nakatitig sa kanya pero wala siyang sinabi.

Beshiwap:
Where the hell are you right now Lyra Cassandra!

Lyra:
I was waiting for him to say something but none came. Hindi ko ba deserve ng explanation? Ganon ba talaga yon beshi? Am I supposed to just take it in? Am I not worthy of an explanation?

Lyra:
Hanggang sa nagtanong na yung babae kung sino ako. He said that im no one.

Lyra:
Dun na ako napa-walk out. Pagtalikod ko, I saw his friends. Andon pala sila, nanonood sa nangyayari. Tapos sabi nung isang babae, I knew this would happen that its just a matter of time until he lose his interest.

Lyra:
They even laughed and said that im stupid if I believed that Steven will take me seriously. That im just his another random side chick. They said that im so naive to believe that he is really serious with me.

Lyra:
Sabagay. Totoo naman yung sinabi nila, ang stupid ko naman talaga.

Lyra:
Im aware of his reputation yet here I am.

Beshiwap:
Fucking hell Lyra. Where are you!

Lyra:
I ran in the nearest bathroom. Nakakulong ako dito sa cubicle. Baka nasa labas pa sila.

Lyra:
Nakakahiya. Wala na akong mukhang maihaharap sa kanila. Im so stupid.

Lyra:
And it hurts. It hurts so much. I cant breath.

Lyra:
Is it supposed to hurt this bad?

2:31 pm

Beshiwap:
You home now?

Lyra:
Yeah.

Beshiwap:
I respect your decision to be alone. But when you need me, im just a call away. Okay?

Lyra:
Yeah.

Beshiwap:
I hate seeing you like this.

Lyra:
I look like an idiot crying my heart out in that comfort room huh.

Beshiwap:
Its okay to cry when you're hurt.

Lyra:
I love him.

Beshiwap:
And he's an asshole.

Lyra:
Ano ba kasing mali sakin? Am I not good enough?

Lyra:
Okay naman kami eh. We were getting along. Sasagutin ko na dapat siya pagbalik ko.

Lyra:
Alam ko paulit-ulit na ako.

Beshiwap:
I dont mind Lyra.

Lyra:
I'll just cry myself to sleep. My eyes feels heavy.

Beshiwap:
Call me when you need someone to talk to.

Lyra:
Yeah.

Beshiwap:
Lyra. You're a wonderful human being. Okay? You can do this.

Lyra:
I dont know anymore.

Beshiwap:
Rest. We'll talk again later.