Hey Future Boyfriend

78.2

Monday, November 11

9:45 am

Beshiwap:
Papasok ka ba?

Lyra:
Oo beshi. Andito na ako sa school.

Beshiwap:
10 pa ang klase ah.

Lyra:
I was hoping to see Steven. Inabangan ko siya sa parking lot.

Beshiwap:
My goodness Lyra. Hindi ka nakakaproud diyan ha.

Beshiwap:
What happened?

Lyra:
I saw him. Lumabas din sa kotse yung girl. Sabay silang pumasok. 💔

Lyra:
Dati ako yung nandon. Tapos ngayon iba na.

Beshiwap:
Babalik ka na naman ba sa pang-i-stalk kay Steven? Paano ka makakamove on niyan?

Lyra:
I dont wanna move on. I can love him from afar. Right?

Beshiwap:
Mauntog ka na sana sa katangahan na ito. Hindi ko to kinakaya talaga!

Lyra:
Andito ako sa cafeteria ngayon. He's here.

Beshiwap:
Pupuntahan kita. Stay there.

10:11 am

Beshiwap:
I dont like what im seeing Lyra Cassandra.

Beshiwap:
Talagang hinarang mo pa siya sa pinto where everyone from the cafeteria can see you?!

Beshiwap:
Dont tell me you're begging him again!

Beshiwap:
That's it! Im coming near you.

12:02 pm

Beshiwap:
Nakauwi ka na ba?

Lyra:
Sorry beshi. Nagskip ka pa ng klase dahil sakin.

Beshiwap:
Lyra. You need to pull yourself together. That boy is freaking asshole!

Beshiwap:
Nakita mo naman kanina diba! You're standing there begging for your dear life and then what?! He just walked away like he doesnt know you!

Beshiwap:
Hindi kita pinagalitan kanina kasi alam kong lalabas lang sa kabilang tenga mo lahat ng sasabihin ko.

Beshiwap:
Basahin mo tong mga sinasabi ko ng paulit-ulit kasi na-i-stress ako sayo at sa nangyayari!

Beshiwap:
I dont want people laughing at you on your vulnerable state. My ghad Lyra! Bakit kasi sa cafeteria pa! Ang daming nakakita ng pangdi-deadma ni Steven sayo.

Beshiwap:
And look what happened! Their making fun of your situation! I know you're hurt with all the things they said. And dont get me started with what Steven is making you feel right now.

Beshiwap:
I dont really like cursing this intense, but fucking bullshit.

Lyra:
Sorry for making you upset and for causing trouble beshi.

Beshiwap:
You're my trouble. Im your bestfriend. I got your back no matter what. And I hate the situation that you're in right now. I want my bubbly friend back.

Lyra:
I dont know if she can still come back. She's too broken.

Beshiwap:
Please dont let their words get into you.

Lyra:
Do I really look stupid for loving Steven? Anong magagawa ko? I fell for him. Hard. Is it a crime?

Lyra:
Ako naman yung nasaktan diba? Bakit parang kasalanan kong nagtiwala ako? Is it bad to trust someone?

Lyra:
Everybody thinks that I am foolish, naive and stupid.

Lyra:
Na pinaglaruan lang ako ni Steven, hindi ko man lang nahalata. Is it my fault that I thought it was real? That what we had was real?

Lyra:
Why does it feels like im the one at fault? Like im the one who did the wrong thing. Kasalanan ko bang hindi ako kasing lakas nila?

Beshiwap:
Stop with these thoughts Lyra Cassandra. Its his fault. Not yours!

Lyra:
Why is life so unfair? Im the one left broken and hurt and yet people saw me as the stupid one. The one at fault coz I trusted too soon.

Lyra:
Is it bad to hope for the good?

Lyra:
Mahirap ba akong magustuhan dahil ganito ako? That's why I only have you and my family? Am I hard to love?

Beshiwap:
Mas lalo ko lang gustong patayin yang Steven na yan. How dare him put you in this kind of situation!

Beshiwap:
Yan ang problema sa mga babaero eh! They jump from one girl to another like its no big deal. Na akala mo ayos lang. Walang maiiwanan at masasaktan. Hindi man lang nila narerealize yung emotional pain na ini-inflict nila sa taong iniiwan nila.

Beshiwap:
Assholes. Dapat hindi sinisimulan kung hindi naman kayang paninidigan! Na-ha-high blood talaga ako.

Lyra:
I'll just take a rest and cry myself to sleep.

Beshiwap:
Mabuti pa nga. But please not with the crying, you've had enough. Stop thinking too much okay?

Lyra:
That's all I do nowadays, think too much. That's why I like sleeping, I forget the pain even just for a while.

Beshiwap:
You'll get through this. Okay?

Lyra:
Sana.